at around 7+..last minute plan to go the the most hated place of mine..SERANGOON ROAD!i dont like...so left house arnd 715..reached there oni about 830..coz of the effing traffic!then ate first..sean called me..talk talk awhile...headed to the expo area for deepavali shopping..actually,i got no interest luhh..haha...but yeaa...while walking arnd,i heard a familiar voice,perhaps seen a familiar face..but i didn't care..thought it was just a look alike..and when me and sis were in one shop...it wasn't a look alike...she was right behind me..with i have no idea who...okayyy...i saw her 3 times...SWAY!!lol...anyways..heck that...sis bought the "heavenly" cookies..lol..then suddenly got fireworks..like for about 10-15minutes non-stop...swesome...but i only managed to video 28 seconds..HAHA!!!busy listening to My L.O.V.E:) ok then...headed to the car..was alrdy 930..i thought we going home...then dad was like lets browse arnd some more-.- i damn tired rdy!!so yea..quick quick bought costumes...then headed home...i lost my earpiece rubber:( haha...oh yeaa..my costume is turquoise:) nice...but need A LOT of tailoring..hehe^^well..thats about it luhhs..gonna be midnight rdy..need to watch some movie with sis ....i malas urhh...oh!me and sis created this today... [ Anandan must be really scared...Coz he's got two beautiful daughters:) ]HAHA...AWESOMEEE!!

today supposed to go for aqeil's bdae celebration at ayu's house...but unfortunately i couldnt:( anyways..yesterday concert...awesome!!!shankar sang the breathless song...omg!!!i love him..hahax!still wonder how he manage to sing it sia...awesome:) concert ended arnd 1130...reached home by 1+ omg!!i damn sleepy..slept like a pig last night..and woke up at 3pm today...actually woke up arnd 11 today la..thn the stoopid drilling gave me aneffing headache...haiss..anyways..monday,tuesday,wednesday got coaching and dance..but 4na dancers will be going for coaching...oh!!good news!!!yesterday i got to know i'm not gonna be dancing the first part...which is the evil evil part..haha..teacher say i dance to feminine...HAHA!!okay.that's a great relief:) cant wait for the part i'm gonna dance:D oh yeaa!2 days back i tried lerning bila cinta on keyboard...first part was awesome...then after that gone case rdy..lol..thinking of learning anthr yiruma song:) either love hurts,I... or till i find you....confirm will take about a year to master..hahax...ok...thats all for now...dad gonna come in the room soon....

im back home..last day of school today...its the release of report books and half the class didnt come:( so yeaa.came school...then i playing with my phone..swing here,swing there...and it flew easily 10m away from me..almost went in the drain sia..but thank god no scratches:D so..then headed to class..sending tons of songs from nani's fone..halima playing my handphone game..noraza was busy "flirting" lol..then had to do the Mr.Chin thing..so went around the whole class..ask them write stuff they wanna say to him..then was recess:D didnt eat...had to re-write everything the class wrote for him...coz my handwriting nice..haha.like as if..so yeaa..after that...they managed to finish up the surprise during physics period...so..physics period got holiday homework and all...and we gonna have NAME TAGS sia...u think we ur bloody dogs uh..so leceh sia...no space for my full name:P actually,it's i dont want to put my full name..hehe...okayy..after school..did last minute touch-up on the surprise...took pics with him...the guys hug him...lol..she so huggable:) then he give us CHOCOLATE!!!yay!!after that..wanted to find dance studio for mafias to practice next years' events..coz they might not have time to practice nxt year..got o levels...so must start now...we tried so hard..still couldn't get the dance studio open..coz needed teacher-in-charge..haiss..then haziq was like" Alamak..Rojak Sentiasa Rojak Uh!" haha...so true!!!naik pangkat da mcm gini uh...stooopid!!ok...then after easily about half an hour..left school..headed to SKP...guys wanted to check out the jabbawockeez look-alike mask...then fazil and haziq headed back to school..still trying to get dance studio..well,i hope u get it:D walked with ayu and rahziah..rahziah narrating her story...then ayu went home..rahziah teman me to bus stop...within a minute,the bus come-.- poorthing she walk all the way sia..haha...oh...AND MY SCHOOL IS CRAZY!!!next week..gonna have coaching lessons...ok thats fine...then indian daance like almost every day!!are they that crazy..i mean..i know its SYF and all..but hello!!we need our holidays too..so i wont be going for almost half of the days..cant go for 4 days? coz of coaching..then might be going overseas too...then 2 nov and 28 december cannot go...coz of..hehe^^ got la...haiss..i now no mood for dancing seh...tmrw also have:( but...me and rahziah gonna have mac breakfast:) yay!!!! oh..my house still noisy..toilet breakers still inhabiting the house..haiss..and dad just came home..so gotta stop blogging:)

well..back from school..after school.collected rusydi's guitar then headed to northpoint..buy stuff..headed home...slack slac..and now i'm here..okayy...TAGGED!is effed up...seriously...i dont know what's going on..how "unknown" people start adding...i mean..thats the point of mutual friends..but this case is way overboard...and its related to the same story...come on la...i just feel like deleting my tagged account if this continues...and i'm not in a state to "talk" right now...so,why do you people keep bugging me?GIMME A BREAK WOULD YOU! enough of this "i want to get to know you" crap...for girls its fine..but guys!it's all gonna lead to the same path...and yeaa,you know what i mean...i've got two of this kind of guys so far.AND I DONT LIKE IT!so..please..just for once..LEAVE-ME-ALONE!

1230 now..in school..supposed to do some survey thingy..but in the end,there was no survey..lol..so yeaa..today was fun...almost late for school..then during social studies period.me,noraza,adeline and mano so called "cabut"..me and noraza go toilet..slack slack..then mano and adeline came along..slack some more...tie tie hair..lol.then come back to class..teacher asked us to follow her...we had to copy the corrections and do reflection.WAS AWESOME!haha..then we sacrificed recess for that la...but we still ate uh..then very late rdy..after bell rang,we ate..managed to finish up before we all went back to clas..had no malay...then now IM FREEZING!in the computer lab...haha...and rahziah watching personal taste..part 10 on youtube..haha..once they french kiss..."OMG!!!SO SWEEETT!!" thats the only words coming out of rahziah's mouth..hahax...ok...i cannot blog rdy..MY HAND FREEZING!!!

today started as an awesome day..but ended quite rough:( firstly,it was total slack time in school..so was with a few kentalians...cracking jokes and watching them dance...i thought those laughters will make my day...unfortunately,i was wrong..well,CONGRATULATIONS TO MY DEAR RAHZIAH!!!for getting top in level and class for EOY!!!she got all A1 sia...i jealous..lol..no la..im glad with what i've got..didn't expect to get that high after all the slacking throughout the year..but i know i could do MUCH MUCH better...second and third in class...i dont know who..i got fourth...in level and class...Weyy,at least i get my edusave scholarship again:) so yeaa..im kinda happy bout academic results..BUT!!!!!MY PHYSICAL FITNESS THEY GIVE ME BRONZE 0.0 how the hell did i get a bronze??i want my gold!!!next year for sure uh!and another thing..MY WEIGHT-UNDERWEIGHT!!!urgh!!!im alrdy 40 waddd...gosh,i feel so anorexic..haha..so anyways...played with noraza iphone...the veg samurai game-i got new high score for the chaos mode!110:)WEE..then play the haunted house thingy..damn scary sia..lol..well...end of the day..i kinda cried...we got to know the bad news...we were all damn shocked...but i think me and rahziah got affected the most...haiss...dont worry...we both planned what to do...i just hope it helps...ok..after all that sad heartbreaking news and all...we were planning for some things on thursday^^ cant wait...and all of a sudden i miss mr chin..me and rahziah were looking back to the times when we were standing at the back of the class...haha..and when i had to sit on the floor for not bringing textbook..the day i got known as a "rebellious" student. and also when i started slacking and all...haiss...but i still managed to pass everything including POA:)...i got B4 for malay ..unbelievable:) yeaaa...so TONS OF MEMORIES I SWEAR...and then we were at the bus stop...talking bout our friends...all their problems too...yeaa..we all have problems right? and how we wish to help one another....but at that moment,on hearing her story..i actually put myself in her position for that time...it's damn frustrating and difficult for her.haiss..i hope everything gets better for her:) CHEER UP BABE!!I'm always there for you,if you need anyone to talk to okayy...and u better be there for me,when i need someone to talk to..haha!!!oh yeaaa..i went to return CDs rdy..FINALLY!!so my day ended like this...i dont like today...although it was results day and all...i never expected this bad news to happen...haiss...well, enough of all this complications... [ I'm Really Gonna Miss You Like Crazy Bro:( Please Don't Give Up. And Please Keep In Touch With All Of Us:) ]

I promised not to hurt myself anymore.but what happened yesterday night?i promised to live my life right here,right now.but why does everything haunt me again? i've broken too many promises with myself.and im gonna do something about it. i know the root cause of this shit.the cause for my sadness,sorrows,weakness and depression. and i'm gonna put an end to this,Today.I'm not gonna get hurt anymore. I'm not gonna shed a single tear no more. I'm not gonna live in the past. i've been through too much and i don't want to "relive" those days..from the time i was primary 3 till now..it was just too much to handle..it still is too much to handle.. and i'm keeping all this to myself..i'm not letting anyone know about it:( so..today is the last day for the "too much hurt". I'm moving on to a 'happier' me:) And You'll notice HOW i will stop this'hurt' everyone will know how i will stop this hurt coz its gonna be obvious. Although i don't know how long i can keep to this promise.............. [ Babe, I'm Concerned ]

50th post:) lol..slept at 1am ystd...watched 13b...sis said it was damn scary uh...well..i watched the first part of the movie while sis was on fb..then the second half i slept:D then sis watched the movie...haha...she damn scared uh..then she ask why i not scared...haha.told her i slept...lol..she scared to go toilet sia..CUTENESS!!!okayy..then she had teaching today..jst returned:) i woke up at 9am...coz toilet breakers came rdy...whoaa!!until now they drilling and drilling and drilling!!irritating sia..i cant watch spongebob in peace sehh..then lazed arnd in bed till about 1+ got up by 130..had bdae cake for breakfast:) then watched spongebob...talked to sis on the fone awhile..she told me story about the primary 3 boy reading book and....haha..then she kept on talking bout the money and all..i mean i know you have to save up la...but u keep on mentioning abt it..repeating the same thing over and over again..if u got something new to say then i'll listen la...this is just the same story...its kinda irritating for me...okayy..anyways...tmrw there's school:) i want to see my annei's!!! and Kentalians!i miss them like crazy..and might be going to watch movie with lekha:) well..i havent check timing yet...gonna check now then let her know uh...so dad went out...for his presentation thingy...dont know what time he'll be back..oh !supposed to returnt he CD's today:( haiss..malas uh..tmrw i return them...:) hehe^^ okayy...im kinds bz nowww....done with blogging:)

just came back home:) i lvove today also..haha...firstly met with krisna..went to swami...met the greatest grandmother ever...she damn cute:) so huggable:) gave her food...then talked with the uncle and the patti:) ...then was late!!had to go grandma's place..it was already 7..and before all that..krisna was so kiddo-ish...at yishun mrt bus stop..waiting for the SSC bus..she climb on top the slope thingy..and sat...then she ask me join her...she said go from the end then slide..so i did the action of sliding...then got UK behind look sia..then stare stare..EMBARASSING!!!hahax...anyways...after swami home...we were so damn crazy..we were finding for taxi for almost half an hour...when we cross the road,the other side got taxi..cross back,the other side got taxi..SWAY!!!then i listen music...then...saw taxi..so i ran like a mad dog..and flagged the taxi..AND IT STOPPED!!!YAY!!! see la..who is the one who flag^^ okayy.then dropped krisna at sembawang mrt..headed to grandma's place..HAD ANOTHER BDAE CELEBRATION!!awesome sia...for my sixteen bdae!!!ITS THE MOST MEMORABLE ONE YET!!!five bdae cakes rdy...4 celebrations...great or what!then got cake smudged on my face-.- and yeaaa..aunt bought for me and sis coach bag..NICEE!!!where uh u getting all these coach bags??^^ since beginning of this year u noe...i dont think u bought all of them...something uh....We'll FIND OUT!!!!one day...hahax...then left house arnd 9.50...ate grandma's awesome food....the best sambar...and the potato is better than mac's french fries..hahax...so yeaa..just reached home..gotta go watch movie with sis...the last movie..supposed to return CD's ystd..then we never watch all..so yeaa..tonight watch..tmrw return..AND I HAVENT DONE MY EZLINK!!!ONE WHOLE WEEK RDY!!!GOSHXS!!haha..maybe next week ...one day..lol..okayy..enought blogging for today..its 1013 rdy...tmrw "toilet breakers" coming over...haha...at 9AM!!!gosh..have to sleep early....

why do you take everything to yourself.whether its meant for you or not..seriously! i don't type everything about you okayy..there are many more people out there who i dedicate my "status" to ...please stop thinking its all meant for you...its gonna cause more misunderstandings ok..and i dont want that.. i've had enough. i did my part.

woke up at 12+ today...having headache...coz ystd slept at 1am..sis wanted to watch the tamil movie...which she was damn scared of..i have no idea why..the zombie in the movie looked like a clown!okayy..went to fb...noraza uploaded all the pictures rdy...damn nice:) i didnt know we took hundreds of pics yesterday...put a few of them on tagged:) the best one's luhh..i miss yesterday sehh!!how i wish everyday of my life was yesterday...wow!!so many spongebob cakes..lol...okayy...tmrw there's school:) cant wait..tmrw will be exactly one month to dad's bdae..must plan something big!!50th birthday!!okayy..my hair is still straight today..lol..even after sleeping!AWESOME!!hahax...so yeaa..might be heading to grandma's place soon...and sis says she wants to go to the home...to pass one lady food..coz she very poorthing...she's vegetarian...and the home doesnt cook for her vegetarian food:( so we planning to buy for her anytime we can..krisna might tag along though...i miss her!!!!okayy..what else??oh yeaaa..dad got to go for a meeting today...WTH SIA!!he just oni come back yesterday...and today must go meeting...cant the stoopid client give him at least one day of rest...haiss..lol..ok!i need to go shower soon....chatting with navin now...coz we both damn bored..hahax..and yeaaa...for tuesday's movie...i need to check timing!!well..other than that..nothing else!!!so byeee:) [ No More Tears From You Okay! Let's Live Our Lifes Happily For Once:) ]

Second post of the day:)i forgot to say that the best part of today was that me and sis got two cakes with candles...but no matches or lighter..baik uh!!!so i dont get two wishes:( oh!!then me,lekha and sis headed to swensens to makan..the stoopid indian waiter keep on looking at us sia..then sis was like" by the time we leave,he'll be blinded" haha!!took many many pics there..but its in the cam..didnt upload yet..oh!!and i got so so embarassed today sia..omg!!sis also...dengan semangatnyer i went in sia...only sis and lekha knows and no one else will..COZ ITS SO DAMN EMBARASSING..hahax..toilet...then lekha wanted to see the "hot guys" who will seduce people's hands..urgh!they weren't even hot sia..they use their "good looks" to ask people and encourage then to buy their products..lol..oh yeaaa..MAFIAS all wanted to carry me today sia..omgosh...felt so weird..but in the end didnt uh...lol...and im glad my dad is back!!!yeay!!on tuesday might be going to watch the childs eye...with lekha bby!! who want to come!!!!hahax...okayy..its 1130...late late rdy....noraza havent finished uploading all the photos on fb..she uploaded those before the party...upload cepat oik!dad and sis watching tamil movie now..so i can blog freely..hehe^^and i swear i dont know how to thank all those who came and all those who wished me too..priceless gift!and surprisingly,dad did not scold me when i temporary rebond my hair..and also when i wore tube dress:) well..coz when i was arnd him,i wear cardigan uh!!lol!awww!i miss today already:( sean had work..so he didnt come..shanmuka was sick:( then ayu,sha and nani didnt come too:(haiss..well,it was still fun though:)i miss the slug part ...and when fazil and rusydi danced jabbawockeez:) wow!!they dance like exactly the same..i took video:) and the part when the cake fell down..coz i took picture with fazil:)a total of 4 caked for this very special sweet sixteen...haha..oh yeaa!!sis made fun of me..coz of the toilet thingy..then i said omg!i watched nc16 stuff right when i turned sixteen..heard it too! then she said"yeaa...you watched it live"..WTH!!!hahax...and yeaa...this day brought back alot of memories la..good and bad..hehe^^ alright..1143 rdy..im tired of typing crap...hopefully scandal uploads the pics by tmrw..if not i kill her on monday..hahax!kidding uh.. UPCOMING BIRTHDAYS!!! leroy,dad:),haziq and lekha:) CANT WAIT!!!lekha..i try get you spongebob cake okayy..hahax:)okayy..enough blogging:) i love today....ok..i said that already...hahax...

had an AWESOME time today i swear!rahziah,noraza,shamira,lekha,fazil,faiz,haziq,hanafi,rusydi came:) so fun!!!the spongebob cake was yumyum:) lekha kept on screaming..haha..then the sweet 16 cake was damn nice siaa..but very creamy uh...so yeaa...took alot of pictures uh..and rusydi was like "wow...you look..." haha..i now..i look damn damn different...:) so anyways...noraza brought her camera..asked her to take tons of pictures:)the jump shot the guys did was best..then the proposal:)hahax! and the birthday present...THANKS TO ALL!!i love it:)so yeaaa..left there around 6+ me,sis and lekha walked around millenia walk...while the rest went to eat..we all walk walk around...until suntec sia..hahax.then lekha decided to follow us to fetch dad:) she misses him alot!haha..so headed to changi airport around 715...reached there on time...dad came out...HE LOST WEIGHT!!coz he only ate soup there:( no proper veg meals:( he was surprised to see us and lekha..then lekha pinch his cheeks..HAHS..cuteness..had tons of laughs la...i'll never forget this day:) the best bday i had:) a memorable sweet sixteen:) then took taxi and dropped lekha at her block..we headed home...dad drank soup again....washed up ..and now i'm here..gonna head to ebd soon though..might be going out tmrw again:)so yeaaa.more pictures of today on noraza's fb..and some on my tagged:)

okayy..i'm officially 16:) just read noraza's bdae text again..haha...can laugh la..damn cute i swear:) puts that long lost smile back on my face..and wat u said was true:) really true..i lost that happy lil girl in me...i lost my happiness and very soon i became that "emo" girl..but noraza and all my other friends and brothers have really made me the girl i was during the earlier part of the year:) i seriously thank you all for that!and sis is another person who adviced me and made me realise what nonsense i was doing with my life:) though i'm still confused now...coz i'm not sure where my life is heading to..I KNOW YOUR ALWAYS THERE FOR ME BABEH!and tmrw is your...umm...17 year old 6 mths eh??lol..who gives a damn...hahax...no need to count months all..u still 17!and shorter than me:)alright...this year is coming to an end..sadly uh...met all sorts of people....those who made me realise i needed to change my ways,those who got along with me so well,those who just ruined my life..well,it still made me who i am today:)anyways...i've realised what a fool i've been in this year...and its gonna change by next year..I'M GONNA CHANGE..well..already started!! i just got a handbag..AND I NEVER THOUGHT I WILL!!haha...its good la..so thats about it..OH!uncle chile just messaged..from france..wow!!pay alot of $$..haha...thanks alot!!anyways...chatting with navin now..I MISS HIM!!!:( i know u miss me too la..haha..but u forgot my bdae:( hahax... tmrw,whoever is coming for the singapore flyer thingy...you're gonna be amazed uh...two hot sisters gonna come..hahax..kidding uh!oh i finally learnt how to balance on heels!yes ah!! well...ending here now...gonna chat with navin awhile more,then sleeeepp like a pig..tmrw must wake up early...plan is:wake up,go collect "sweet 16" cake,come home,shower,make up,ass out the house,rebond hair(temporary),head to dinner with sis and her friend{friend uh),then celebrate my 16 year old 1 day birthday..HAHAX...i swear its gonna be awesome..but i dont know WHO THE HELL IS COMING!!!SIS DOWAN TO TELL ME!!!DAMN U!hehe^^ [ I LOVE YOUUUUU!! ] 1 month:P and its good to see Age"16 on my tagged..i feel matured..hehe^^

aitee..im back from another outing with sis..well,ystd had few people wish me:) including dad..he called at 12+ to wish me..anyways..i slept ystd at 1130..then sis woke me up at 12..wished me happy birthday and forced me to go through cake cutting..haha...then woke up today..headed to school..bdae present from halima..thanks babe!alot of people wished me today..damn damn happy:) so yeaa..had my birthday song...they all sing as we were walking up the stairs to class..i loved that part..:) then sean and shanmuka never come school:( TAKE CARE LA BROS! gave rusydi and hanafi the wristbands,noraza the earrings:) then had the art fest thingy...whole day performance after performance...my leg was killing me..and worse still,i sprained my neck seh..early early in the morning i sprain..haiss..ok then...recess,ate with noraza and the others...OH!it was keertana's bdae also..and mr shaiful?? i think his one is 19oct uh...hahax:)then dance...left halway coz had to go out with sis..for a moment i thought i wouldnt get the surprise bdae celebration thingy...coz like no one bothered..then at dance class,,teacher gave me chocolate:) then had cake cutting...PLANNED BY RAHZIAH!!I LOVE YOU BABE!!!and i drank coke...finally!!so yeaa..after all that...danced awhile..missed dance sehh...then haziq kept on kacau-ing me:( lol...left class around 3+ reached home,showered and off to causeway point...got whatever i needed,headed to grandad's place:) talked awhile..then headed back to causeway with sis to watch you again..damn funny movie..i likee:)so i had a great sweet sixteen birthday:) want to thank the "i dont know how many" people who wished me on this very special day..i really appreciate it:) whether ur tagged friends or personal friends:) I LOVE YOOH! and dad just called..he also sick:( take care k..i miss you:( and tmrw,a special surprise for you:)curse the stoopid haze,all my loved ones falling sick..stooopid deforestation! [I Thought You Changed. But You Didn't. In Fact, You Became Worse:( I Won't Shed A Tear On This Happy Day]

back from another date with sis..went bugis..for birthday shopping..before that..had facial..AND IT WAS VERY VERY THE PAINFUL! BUT WORTH IT:) so,at bugis,bought wristbands for piranhas..hope they like it..bought earrings for monster:) then after all that...bought heels..then followed sis to get her dress..she looks HAWT in it..i swear...then i got a tube dress which i tried just now..and i changed my mind to wear that dress on 23rd:)then i bought handbag,so did sis..then headed home ..tired but still we try on the dresses:) and now i'm texting noraza..we argueing about who is "hotstuff" lol..cant wait for 23rd...and dad.texted me an early birthday wish today:) coz later he will be travelling ..so cant text..thanks dad..TAKE CARE.I LOVE YOU:D anyways..tmrw's plan is to go to school,kena bdae bashes:(,then go for dance...but not for long..i'm leaving by 3+ head home..then have to go northpoint..buy stuff i need..maybe head down to amk..to get my ezlink done..then go grandad's place.coz long time never see him:)so..i decided on 23rd..im wearing my tube dress..which i bought today...i love it:)wow!i'm wearing a dress..SO NOT ME!!well.i'm changing eh?hehe^^ okayy...currently im drinking bubble tea:) skipped dinner..coz me and sis spent too much on shopping:) dont worry uh..we'll save up babeh!oh..and today...this salina complain about my leg...lol..dowan to tell why...hehe^^ so heck that..its 9.42pm now..a bit scared and excited to see what 4na besties put up for me..confirm birthday bash..NUMBER 1! i'll be powdermouth number 2..lol..okayy..thats all for now..got movie date with sis again..last movie for the week..tmrw going to return the CDs maybe:)well..thats it:) and this is the very sweet sixteen that i have dreamt..a totally new ME..better of course!:P i love my life:)

back home from school..im not so happy with my results though...didnt do that well...but yeaa:) i know i did my best...coz i passed my malay...:)not boasting but i wanna post my results here:)--Maths:52.8%,English:61.7%, Combined Sciences:78%, Malay:60.5%, POA: 74% 0.0, Combined Humanities: 60% :(...so yeaa..i did average:) well..a great start for tmrw though...I SCARED I KENA BDAE BASH!!! confirm got flour and powder and ice cold water...haiss..dont care uh...enjoy tmrw before saturday:) and i deserve it though..after how i made many people "powdermouth" ESPECIALLY SALINA!!hahax...well then...slack day today...sis asked me to come home straight after school..then i rush rush la...coz needed to go bugis...then later i call her..she said we going at 3pm...haizz..then i could have walked with rahziah and the others..well..i met up with noraza...then walked to 812 bus stop...talked about love life and my bdae on saturday..hahax...fun:) she wanted to follow me and sis to bugis...but 3pm was too late for her uh...so then....came home....now slacking..gotta shower in a few minutes time:( so bye peoples...and i think i know who will be the first person to wish me..at 12.00am today:) hahax...wait and see... [Can You Look Me In The Face, Tell Me That You Really Love Me The Same-Fever ] AND THANKS FOR THE STARE TODAY..made my day huh?well..guess its just gonna be that way for the rest of our lives?no talking at all...just LOOK!awesome...i miss talkign to you...seriously..never thought i would,but i do:(

alright..im back home from bdae shopping..bought 2 dresses..OMG!I BOUGHT DRESSES!LOL..although they weren't the dress which i had dreamt of(literally)..quite nice uh:)i like..especiallyt he white one which i will wear on the 23rd:)so anyways....saw the same lady at amk hub today..the one who gave me and sis that peice of paper..whoaa...she suddenly disappear again sia..i kept on looking back to see if she would disappear..then never..once we walking out of that area..she disappeared...coincidence much??second time noe...ok anyways..grandma wanted to go hougang..for i have no idea why..lol..was late so we all headed home aft dinner...then yeaa..tmrw is facial and bugis with sis:) to buy bag and heels:) omgosh..i'm gonna wear heels...hahax...then friday is confirmation of all other things..MY BIRTHDAY! and go arnd shopping for last minute stuff if there's any..OH YEAAA!!wanted to get replacement ezlink card..unfortunately we were late by 40mins..the stoopid booth closed at 6pm..urgh!so friday might be doing that too:)so well..thats about it la...this whole week i went out sia..every single day...fuhh!tiring seh!and my phone touchscreen giving problems again..haiss..very the slow:( well..dad went to manila today..coming back on the 23rd:) cant wait!!and if there's dance on friday..I HAVE TO SKIP IT!!!MY BIRTHDAY PREPARATIONS MORE IMPORTANT K!!! oh!i got another cake...just ordered today...the sweet 16 one...well coz its sweet 16 that why i chose uh...BUT ITS PINK!!hahax..anyways...not hating pink much nowadays..i even tried on a pink dres..0.0 HAHAX..and accidently destroyed one dress.:) lol... so yeaaa.im satisfied with whatever i have gotten this year for my birthday:) THANKS TO ALL THOSE WHO MADE MY BIRTHDAY SPECIAL EVEN BEFORE IT CAME:) includin my friends:) love u ppl!! well..ok..i got a date with my sis now:) watch hindi movie again...hehe^^

20102010. another day in school..haiss..got maths results..i passed overall 52.8..not happy at all with my results..:( lost 15 marks coz i never round off properly..wth!so anyways..sat with noraza..asked her to vandalize my new fulscap paper:) nice:) hahax..then after school and all..headed back home...walked with noraza and syazman and aisyah...they went medusa stalking...so i had to go home...need to go out later with grandma...and btw! friends they're just being friends...but the irritating kind..please dont think otherwise..it's all rumours..nothing is true ok..no ofeence but nothing is!and i thought we could be friends:( anyways...811 back home..and i think..I THINK!i saw you..omg cant believe sia...then i almost wanted to get down but the stoopid bus passed by...urgh!!so anyways...thats about it..gotta head to the shower now..and tmrw is results!O.O and my facial..sis ask me to do..urgh! and today is my shopping for tube dress..if possible uh:) and VKEE!thanks for the early bdae wish:) so thats about it for now..might blog again when i'm home:)

i just got the shock of my life... mixed emotions now...unexpected...omg..i still cant believe it..i dont wanna mention what it is..and i have no idea whats going on...it seems so weird to me...like why now???and is it just coincidence? or you knew it??ok i dont wanna think so much about it...need to find EZLINK!!!now now now!!

MAJOR PROBLEM!!i lost my ezlink card..at i dont know where..which means tmrw biometric registration how??okayy..gotta start finding..hopefully its at home... so anyways...headed out with sis today to polyclinic to check her stoopid knee..waited 3 freaking hours just for a 2minute consultation and $2.10 medicine..WTF!!!and i was getting so damn bored ...outside the doctors room...they showing mr bean cartoon series..OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN...BOOORRRIIINNGGGG!!!couldn't they have shown spongebob or something!!lol..anyways...joanne keeps on saying the doctor looks like a giraffe..O.O hahx..headed to northpoint after that..to get what i needed..then on the way got this two stupid indian guys chooting at me and sis..DAMN YOU!so fat fat think so hot uh! so yeaa..just came home..and umm.tmrw gonna go out with grandma to amk hub area to get bdae dress:) yeaaaa...she blanja uh^^ cant wait...well.thats about it luhh..gonna watch movie now..me and sis rented...3 hindi movies:) and yeaa..i dont know if i should go to school tmrw...COZ I GOT NO EZLINK!!!serious problem...okayy..enough blogging..i need to find my ezlink NOW NOW NOW!

IM BACKKK!!!and i'm not going for swimming tmrw..sorry peepos! :( anyways...just came back from a whole lot of shopping at northpoint..sis and her stoopid suspicion..the 6 o clock thingy..-.- so we went window shopping around northpoint...bought a yellow blouse from op...wow!i have a yellow blouse..awesome!!!if i wear confirm fazil kembang..hahax..then went to net..got another blouse...nice:) sis asked me to wear that blouse on the 23rd if i dont find the perfect dress for me tmrw...okay babe! then went to popular..i bought tracing paper..can trace spongebob..HAHAX!and yeaa..we met anitha and ruthra at popular..anitha got scared coz of my contact lens..O.O nice expression:) i likee^^ so yeaa...outside of popular...whoaaa..my leg started to hurt badly..it wasnt ankle pain...but i seriously couldnt walk sia...feels like the nerve got one sharp pull...whoaa..i almost cried..then i just stand outside popular..leaning against the wall...asked sis to step on my leg..then was kinda better..managed to walk..and when i reached net..I COULD WALK!!!haha...then bus-ed back with sis,anitha,ruthra..anitha keeps on talking about ________...keep on saying and repeating that ________ has a crush on me...that was LAST YEAR!!!aiyooo..and your dream GONE CASE LA...i think it was not ________,maybe another guy uh...please uh..who want to be with ________ sia!!lol..NOT ME! so yeaa..i'm still wearing contact lens..no heart to take it out uh..feels like raya last year..when i didnt wanna take it out...one reason was coz i couldnt..hahax..ok...well..tmrw accompanying sis to go xray her cacat leg at polyclinic...might be meeting class at yishun mrt awhile..just to see them off..then head to polyclinic where joanne will be there to accompany sis too...and i think i gonna wear the yellow blouse..i like:) so yeaa..thats about it!!!3 posts today...and i need to play keyboard!!!adios!

SAI went offline rdy:( my webcam also got problems..haiss..so yeaa...just now sis called to order my spongebob cake:) its gonna be chocolate peepos...coz majority of my friends love chocolatey!!hehe^^well,i started loving it too..hehe...so yeaa..my hazel eyes wont be wasted..haha..COZ I'M GOING OUT..with sis at arnd 430? dammit if she betray me..I KILL HER!!jajajajaja...anyways..me and salina tried to re-activate our habbo accounts..haha..almost a year i think since i used it..she managed to activate hers..i couldnt..:( i remember the times when i salina n syazman hang out at habbo:) good times!!!so anyways...sis gonna get ready and stuff:) i gotta umm...say byebye...coz i gotta go!!!bye peoples...i love yooohh!

ok..so i'm home..in my jeans...with my hazel eyes..URGH!!we didnt go to town!!sis having bad headache..so last minute plan cancelled..baek uh!i could have stayed longer at fazil's house..!oh yea!!fazil's house!few minutes after my previous post..sean called me..said he was going to fazil's house...then asked if i wanted to come..and duhh!since i was bored as hell at home..i tageed along:)then met fazil,rusydi,haziq at fazils house..they were spray painting fazil's bikes...sean passed me $$ to keep for him..coz if $$ is with him...withing few days GONE! reached there around 110+..then left with sean at 130...that gundu fella...he say want to send me to my block...then last last he said dowan coz my house very far...-.- fine uh!so i walked home ALONE!then showered and all..COZ WE WERE SUPPOSED TO GO OUT..then i nicely dress up all...sis went to shower..and came out saying she got headache.. -.- i wore my hazel contacts rdy:( wasted sia...now i only got 4 left..haiss..so i'm still wearing it now..dowan it to go to waste uh...maybe around 7 or 8 plus i take out HEHE^^ so i'm chatting with SAI now...after a long long time..first thing she come online ....she called me gay...then want to -----...WTH!!!then her stoopid webcam giving problems...dammit! camwhoring with SAI would be fun..haha!so yeaa...thats about it uh..plans runied..and tmrw i not going for swimming uh.... OHOH!!!DAD HAS SAFELY LANDED! THANK GOD!

today was awesome!!and v.e test was weird..i mean couldnt they have put the test on friday?wasted half an hour of my life coming today just to do one test...but heck..it was also good coz after that went to macs near school with besties:)so after school..did the biometric registration thingy..starting next year i believe..but i have to go bck on wednesday...coz i never bring ezlink..and they didnt allow ic.. -.- so yeaa..went to mac ..I ATE HOTCAKES!!haha..then after much chatting and ayu going to buy sayur and haziq pulling my hair! we walked to northpoint..and shanmuka SHOW OFF SIA!!!got iPhone 4 must show off uh!!gundu!but i like the phone cover..nice:) purple...so after that boasting and all..we ended up in northpoint..barely half the shopping centre was open...so we just sat at ljs...mafias ate..while me,rahziah,sean and shanmuka sat at the same place we did when we went to catch i hate luv storys..hahax...stoopid sean..keep on making me get reminded of it...3 of us sitting at the exact same place sia..and shanmuka was opposite me..haha..EXTRA!!lol...so yeaa..he busy fb-ing with his phone la...then me ,sean and rahziah slack there...we wanted to go library and popular...for the fun of it..haha...then i sit beside sean uh..he wear singlet-want to show off muscle oni...HAHA...ok la..dowan upset you...you got muscle la dei...hahax...but shanmuka one better...lol...so around 1015+ me,rahziah,fazil left to walk around northpoint..then mafias dunno where they go la..AND HAZIQ!!!u called krisna using my phone...her mum picked up u know!!!gundu! hahax..then walked all around northpoint coz popular and library havent open.laughed like i've never laughed befoe...then fazil uh..he keep on looking at the triumph and E2(according to fazil its "itu") shops...and he keeps on asking what is bounce..irritating seh!!hahax...then went in to kiddy palace..played with those small kiddo toys..brought back those memories sia...i played keyboard...the first part of love the way u lie..but there was no sustain so it sounded weird..then fazil blur sotong sia.."this song sounds like the rihanna??" LIKE DUHH!!IT IS...slow seh..hahax..then play with the baby doll thingy..haha...fazil keep on putting his finger in the toys' mouth..he kept on telling us that it will bite his finger..lol..never also..then the two babies was cute!!!fazil looked like one mother sia..he layan one toy..then the other toy started to laugh..and he asking the baby to shut up..then when we put both toys(the same babies) face to face..both of it laughing and bouncing..HAHA!!!damn funny sia..then got lower sec pupils also..they looking at us one kind sia... -.- then fazil kept on playing the guitar thingy...hahax...so finally headed to popular..fazil headed home coz he wanted to "berak" hahax...must announce to the whole world la...u want to go just go la...what are we supposed to do?we cant possibly help u right..hahax..so me and rahziah went in popular...sat on the floor finding for pens...lol..got 2 pens each..then bought the sour+ sweets...paid and went home...walked to 812 bus stop...then the school behind us had assembly programme..then we two kept on answering the questions..hahax!!bus came to early though..i wanted to hear the assembly programme:( so reached home about 1145...AND SWIMMING!!!yeaaaa...i and rahziah might be going...but firstly,my swimming suit will be odd one out...coz no sleeve:( and secondly i dont know if dad will allow..and thirdly its so so far away...and so so long!! so if dad calls today i might ask him uh..i hope i can go...:) and yeaa..he msged saying he gonna fly fly rdy..hehe^^then i immediately msged rahziah saying that my dad might call during the night..coz his flight land in afternoon time..:) then *BUZZ* message from dad.."Anyways, big typhoon happening. now around the north part of phillipines" i dunno what to reply rdy sia...haiss...when he msg about the flight..i said ok..take care..love you:) then he replied this...haiss...just hope nothing happens uh...HE'LL BE FINE!!!!okok...so i'm really hoping to go swimming tmrw...its marking day..so no school:) WOOHOOO!! anyways...might be...i said MIGHT BE heading to town later with grandma n sis...i called sis at 945..she was sleeping -.- she said around 2+ going to town... so that was why i slack at northpoint like crazy:) so i dont even think we are going...coz my sis is still sleeping like a pig...well...what else to expect? pigs sleep like pigs..HEHE^^ okayy...enough blogging...!!i need to wake my sis up soon..and i need to slaccccckkkk.... [From Geek To Hotstuff:) Quite A Good Improvement Hotstuff^^ I'm Impressed:D]

okayy..i'm done with movies:) and dad just called...he reached phillipines rdy..gonna check out soon and head to anthr part of phillipines...take care:) so i'm gonna head to shower now..then slack the rest of the day..perhaps a little more computer..:) so thats about it for today..lol..my last post for the day:) okayy..its 730...need to message SOMEONE uh..since SOMEONE never message me yet..haha..ahem ahem!

currently watching kaminey-its NC16:)..hahax!just now watched chance pe dance..nice movie:) texted rahziah for awhile..tmrw going with them to macs after school...coz paper finish at 810:) then maybe i'll slack awhile and head back home..grandma wants to brin me and sis to town!! OH NO!!I DIE!firstly,i hate going to town...unless its with my awesome friends..and secondly..i hate shopping!she confirm will force me to buy some clothes or whatever...and if i cant find anything that i like and i tell her so..she'll keep on thinking that i dont want anything from her...urgh!!typical grandma...haiss..so gotta buy something uh..maybe a ask her to buy the tube dress i always wanted..lol..too ex uh..i use my money...so yeaaa.i swear my life is dead boring now..like suddenly got no exmas to revise for...got nothing to do..at least when there were exams,i had something to do -STUDY!..now damn damn bored sia...and yeaa..sean,shanmuka n faiz plan to go swimming at jurong east swimming complex on tuesday..9-5...crazy sia...whole day swimming!!i mean i can go la..coz my dad not arnd...but i malas uh..so far some more!!haiss..see first la..maybe i teman u all at yishun mrt(if u people are meeting up there)..hahax..i dowan go so far:) and besides..its only guys going??haha...dunno uh...okayy...630 now...i have 40mins of the movie left..then off the com..shower shower and go youtube to see shaapit...rahziah said its damn scary..if got time i want to watch uh...so yeaa...i swear i cant wait tomorrow...i miss kentalians like crazy!!and P.S-i hate those money-face peoples okayy...so dont think u can keep on asking me for a dollar everyday and use the same old reason with that stupid innocent face on me...it's gotta stop...and yeaa..u owe me about $10+ since last year... still got the cheek to ask more!and you thought i'll pity you...oh yeaa..i totally will!after what u have done and will do!please uh! ok..anyways..im damn damn tired..and i miss my dad...u know i just hate it when he calls us in the room just the day before he's gonna go overseas..and he'll tell us about the insurances and all the payments he has made..and all those we have to make for him "if anything happens"...i just hate it when he says "if anything happens"..like..i feel so insecure...haiss...well.everything's gonna be okay:) so yeaa besides that..i cant believe you are friends with all my friends...is it on purpose??ok..heck that!its not important..your life.do what you want..i'm not getting hurt in any way..so yeaa...i gotta continue movie now:) byebye... [I've Gotten Used To The Fact That You're Appearing Offline To Me. I've Gotten Used To Not Seeing You Online. I've Gotten Used to Not Chatting With You. I've Gotten Used To Not Being Close With You. I've Gotten Used To Not Being Your Friend. And I Want It To Remain Thta Way, If You Don't Mind]

woke up at 930 today..coz dad said bye to us..he left today:( then lazed around in bed till about 12..woke up ate breakfast..watched tv...oh!i dreamt again last night..haha..i dreamt that sean and shanmuka very angry with me coz ystd i never give sean my SAFRA card..LOL!Yesterday around 1030 sean called me..he say he want to borrow my safra card..he want to go bowling..then he wanted come under my block la..but i cannot!!my dad at home..at was quite late rdy...u know how strict my dad is right..haha...sorry la bro!so yeaa...yesterday dad gave me $150 to spend on my birthday and all..coz he no time to buy bdae pressie for me...THANKS DAD!!!LOVE YOU!!:D hahax..so yeaa..then no one msged me ystd sia..then i asked sis to msg me..lol..she really did:) she msged "boomz biatch" WAHLAO!!!thats my word ok...only i can say that...ITS COPYRIGHT!!!hahax...then after that was msging rahziah...whoaa ..i finally can text text ppl...ystd like so boring oni..hahax..she got new phone uh E75..yay!!i want to see ur phone on monday!!!oh!!and monday last day of exams..which means i can take bus home..and i can hang out with u all first:) i know u all will celebrate since its last day of exams:) haha...cant wait...oh..and 21st october is when our results are coming out...waaahh!one day before my bdae..just hope the results good uh..if not i no mood to celebrate sia..hahax.so...i'm not going for kpop night:( coz sis planned my bdae outing rdy..whoa..i swear the dreams i had about that was horrible!!i just hope it dont happen...haiss..:( last night was just spending time missing those moments.. :( and i played dj maz after a long long time..haha.. ok..looking on the bright side of life..countdown 4 days to results..5 days to birthday..6 days to my bdae party thingy AND SPONGEBOB CAKE...actually thought of bringing the cake to school..then recess cut together la..then sis said "no..spongebob cake is for us!" hahax...so yeaa..passed the letter thingy to her..which means i dont have to make my way to shenton way just to collect the cake..and it also means that i dont have to talk to unknown bakery people..LOLS! oh..and i told sis i want buy new clothes to wear on 23rd:) so on of these days she'll follow me uh..and i'm still considering whether or not to temp, rebond my hair..coz dad coming back on the 23rd night..which means when i reach home,dad will alrdy be home..so if he sees my hair..i die!!LOL..see first uh..ok. enough blogging:) i want to see videos uh:)

i slept like a pig yesterday!!watched KBS World till about 12...headed to bed and woke up at 3pm...omgosh..had headache again..urgh!!so yeaa..curtain guy came...he fix the new curtains rdy..nice:)oh..and today got spongebob new episodes:)started at 130 until 4 sia..wasted sia..i only watched 1 hr of new episodes..then had briyani for brunch:) nice nice..i damn full!now got spongebob also..but its old episodes...i dowan watch uh...so..plans for today...SLACKK!!!and tmrw i going to be alone again...maid going for class...dad going meeting i think...sis going out..haiss...anyways..sis going to cut her knee...lol..she might be going surgery uh...her knee stoopid...hahax...and tmrw is ralph's bdae:) happy birthday 50cent guy!! lol...oh yeaa..yesterday halima msg me..say want to go watch paranormal activity 2 with her and syazman on my bdae...and maybe i could treat them for the movie??no offence but shouldn't you be treating me??and i have no money...besides,i planned with sis since august that if thilan comes back..we will go together...and I DONT CARE IF HE'S BACK OR NOT!WE ARE STILL GOING!!WE BE LES FOR ONE DAY...HAHAX..so im booked for that movie..lol...then was msging vel and noraza..OH!!!noraza and anitha uh!!!BETRAY ME!!!lol....two of u said its better to be single...then now patch rdy la...lol!!!and anitha even best...say that "P" unlucky for you right...then patch...baekk uh!!lol..anyways...dont break again uh!you all like every single day got misunderstanding sia..LOL...ok...other than that...my spongebob cake is coming:) yay!!and i had 2 weird dreams...one was me,lekha her bro and friends...that was a totally weird dream sia..the fat guy was eeewww..ok nevermind..then the other dream was my bdae at singapore flyer..lol..i dreamt about it even before it happened...and i felt it was a bad dream...coz....nevermind...i hope the real one is good:)hehe^^ aiteee..enough blogging now..i need to watch tv!!

Major exams all over:D phsics and maths was ok la..maths paper wasnt so hard..but i lost quite alot of marks..when teacher said 1 min left,my hand damn damn shaky..couldnt write properly..lol..but i got answer correct!hope teacher can understand my handwriting..lol...physics not bad..i have hope to pass sciences:) so yeaa..chalet planning still going on..14,15,16..i might be going la..i talk loud loud about it in the car just now when dad fetches me..was telling sis,but i wanted dad to hear..lol...:) so he might allow..by next week wednesday or thursday i can confirm..hope i can go sia..although i cant stay over...anyways..monday is v.e exam..no one's bothered..hehe^^ i told salina to remember the meaning of paedophile..haha..coz last yr v.e test and exam got the"what is paedophile" question..haha...but i still hope its computer game!!:) like the one earlier this year..that was fun:) ok...came home,watched spongebob..feeling sleepy..short nap..woke up arnd 245+ watch some more tv..then now on msn chat..chatting with rahziah:) oh!i might be going for kpop night on 23oct..maybe..havent confirm though..tickets damn ex sia... haiss..school gonna end ready...good thing is that its holidays...bad thing is im really really gonna miss my friends!!WE HAVE TO MEET UP ON ANOTHER DAY OTHER THAN THE CHALET!!!at least to "do" homework..lol...29 oct last day of school..i asked dad to lend me his digital camera on that day...he said can!!whoo!!yeaaa!!but cannot let anyone touch touch..coz got all his business photos inside..if anything happened..he die-coz he cannot do presentation rdy..and then i die-coz he'll kill me..lol...so must be very very the careful:) so anyways...exactly one week to my bdae...ok i'm too excited...yesterday was hata bdae...smsed him...HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!lol..so yeaa..thats about it for today la..damn slack redi!!!awesome!!oh!i told sis to bring me for walking with dinosaurs..like cool oni..hahax...i want to go!!!!my bdae present k..lol..kidding uh!but one things for sure.I WANT TO GO UNIVERSAL STUDIOS!!!its a must!!!!I WANT TAKE THE MUMMY RIDE..haha...ok enough of that..rahziah is going to india:( im gonna miss her...well im going too:) but she going north i gong south..haha..she gonna celebrate hari raya haji there..:)well..its been years since she went overseas..so yeaa...she quite excited uh..AND SEAN!!!u also might be going india right..when u go..u better call me before u leave..and u better get a india sim card so i can prank call u..and u better tell me which part of the ashram u staying in..and u better come visit me!!!hahax...that is if ur going la...coz it's gonna be damn damn boring without friends...like in june this year!!damn damn no life sia...whoa..now thinking back to that time..i dowan go india rdy uh...scared later sick again..then faint faint..then cannot go prayers..OMGOSH!!ok..dont so sway..i'll be fine..hahx..okayy..thats all i wanna blog now...i need to play keyboard..and i need to slack my way through..!!number 1 priority!! oh..i learning new song on keyboard...hehe^^ when its halfway through i'll let you know...:)

currently using sis lappy to update..today was poa papers..poa paper 2 was first..more on practical..as usual i never get balance again..hahax...then had one hour break..we actually wanted to go to macs grab something to eat...but lastly stayed in school...ate bread...and studied like crazy:)
poa paper 1 was much easier..more theory..although there was something wrong with the trial balance..the rent received part...everyone debited it to get the correct balance...so after that...told mr chin that there was an error in the paper...asked him to mark us correctly since it was supposed to be rent paid..
well anyways....
tomorrow will be the last two major papers of FYE...physics and maths paper 2...revised physics already...i came home at 12+ then makan until 1230+...told sis that i'm going to sacrifice half an hour of spongebob to study..lol...SHE WAS IMPRESSED:)
 so watched spongebob from 2 till 230..headed back to physics...messaged rahziah n mano..rahziah studied maths first..so now she gonna do physics la..
had shower...now i eating cup noodles...curry flavour :P
dad and maid went to the store thingy...dad got orders to settle and all..so me and sis at home alone:(
sis gonna go out for bhajans then i'll be home alone:(
lol...can study!!and it seems sis was already planning something for my bdae...tell u rdy dowan right...never listen!!toooopid!!
oh and haziq still wants the tempeh..LOL...since raya time he waiting..lol..it will come:) just keep waiting ehk..HEHE^^
oh and i promised myself i'm going to study poa and chemistry and physics during the holidays...especially poa now...coz its the weakest of all my subjects...must buck up by next year...:) yeaaaa motivation uhhh!!
HAHAX..okayy...i gotta go do prayers and all if not dad will kill me n sis..hahax...
and yeaaa..i'll definitely blog tmrw!!!unless my dad is using my com or my whole family went out or my psp no battery or my sis dont let me use her lappy:D
so till then,BYEBYE!!!! <3

back from school..today was chemistry and geography...i studied more on geog..coz i know my social studies gone case...but geog was way way harder then i thought...the moment got the stoopid insert thingy...i cannot do rdy..she never tell us to learn how to read maps all..I FORGOT!!ok nevermind..still i managed to do la..but not enough time also..haiss..then was in class for the whole one hour break revising chemistry...whoa i felt like i didnt know so many things sia...then i last minute memorise stuff...then the paper come so thick thick sia... then i was like confirm die uh..cannot pass ready..haha..but the paper was unexpectedly easier than i thought it would be..i could answer like almost all the questions..but i got lose quite a few marks la...so anyways...had to take bus back today..coz dad went out..friends were going to kfc..then dad called..ask me to have lunch outside:) yeaaa..so i tagged along with friends to northpoint kfc...i ate mashed potato sia...3!!whoaa..full rdy..then reached there..quite empty..then sri n vishnu and other friends came along uh..STALKERS!lol..kidding.sri shave his hair...hahaha..cuteness!so anyways...called sis told her about exams and all..then she wanted to talk to rahziah??all of a sudden sia...then she say rahziah n her going dating.lol..dont u dare date my best friend..haha..i tell thilan uh!so yeaa..after makan-ing and all..as usual nani campur campur the leftovers..and rusydi,hanafi faiz ate...it was cheese+mashed potato+chilli+mountain dew+coke+1 icecube..haha....but they say it still tasted like cheese n potato only..LOL...thennn..we headed to find a suitable place to discuss about the chalet..I WANT TO GO!!!haiss..so..we went to royal sporting house...outside the shop we discuss..lol...then like very weird..then finally we discussed outside the baby spa..LOL...5 people on each side of the walkway...coolness..we were the main attraction :D..then managed to get everything in order..me and rahziah gonna head home...then the rest also went home..walked with ayu,sha,rahziah..then rusydi and hanafi caught up with us...sent ayu and sha and rahziah to their blocks..rusydi n hanafi teman me to 812 bus stop...So now i'm home!!!and tomorrow is poa paper...paper 2 first then paper 1...and rusydi said he want to come late for the paper...aiyyoooo..sayang if u come late ur whole poa gone!!haha....okayy...now 230 rdy..sis on the way home..then i ask her buy for me coca-cola!!long time never drink..then she say meet her at khatib if not no coke...urgh!!then why in the first place u asked if i need anything from northpoint...stoopid!okayy..so gonna be heading to mrt in awhile...exam week starting to pass by slightly faster:) yay..i likee:)and tomorrow is hata's bdae...yay!!happy birthday in advance..lol...if i manage to stay up until 12 today then i'll text you..haha...okayy..gotta go now...enough blogging:)

okayy..today is the 12th:) 10 days to my birthday..and 6 days to end of FYE:) and i still had 2 people wish me today...lol...anyways...tmrw is geography and chemistry..i like never study only..and i had almost the whole class ask me what to study for geog...lol..chemistry quite alot of things to remember la..and geography..i doing the food one..aiyooo..too m uch info!!hahax...so anyways..sis came back late from school today coz of some mischeivious student..lol...then she damn tired...she lying on the bed...then she ask me..ashvini can u bring the shower to me...so i poured water on her la...revenge for the time u pour cold water on me!!HAHAX!then her baju all wet la.then she gonna shower,she pour water on my shirt...waaahhh!!alot sia...my whole shirt drenched..DAMN YOU!anyways..that was fun:) and yeaa..my bed in a mess now..all the study materials around my whole bed..haiss..i no mood to study now also..dad going to phillipines during my birthday time sia..WHY!!!confirm very lonely uh my birthday..haiss...at least i still have spongebob cake to accompany me:) yeaa..so thats all i want to update uh..poa i havent revise and its in 2 days time..wonder hoe i'll do....haiss...so yea:) byebye peoples...

okayy..its 8.40pm..using sis lappy to blog:)
 was studying geog for awhile..but i'm still not sure which theme to study..coz i'm not sure about one chapter in both themes...might be doing the development thingy though...geography of food very confusing...got the revolution revolution thingy..lol..i dont understand..
anyways..malay peribahasa okok uh..poa havent started...sciences havent started also...haiss...
i had my dinner rdy..whoo!!thosai..grandma made:) i like...
so yeaa..dad went to buy stuff to deco deco the house..i think he went to buy curtains??dont know la..lol..
just now i studying in the room..then got the stoopid insect siaa...urgh!!then i go study in the hall..got the same insect. I DONT LIKE!!cannot study ready..lol..
might be sleeping around 12+ today..if i have decided what chapter for geog to study...hehe^^
ok..i got nothing much to blog also..and sis just rolled the freaking chair over my toe..stoopid girl!
oh yeaaa!!i bought the hazel contact lens right...waahhh i want to wear sia....can't wait:)
ok..not important...what's important is that now i go play the keyboard and study awhile then watch tv:)..
oh yeaa!!!love me-recorded ready..nice sia....lol..ok..i shall not boast anymore:)
goodnights people....and sean!!!where's my hug today uh!!!

i guess one more post wont hurt..haha...i damn stress la...i need to blog all my feelings..well i actually got nothing to blog sia...its 5.11om now.. no one message or call me as usual...urgh!!!i feel so alone...lol..so....
oh yeaaa..anitha broke up on 101010.WTH SIA!!!cannot find another date to break up uh...101010 is supposed to be special!!!!aiyoo..anyways.....u dont seem disturbed about it uh....or maybe ur just not letting it out like me..hehe^^cry baby cry!!!!its gonna help..then u'll hate that person..lol..kidding uh...but it'll help:) anyways...exams right..so now can study better:) yeaa...okaayyy..what else to blog uh??hmm...oh yeaa..i hope tmrw the teacher will remember that there is still 9 candidates in my class that have to take ML paper 2...haiyoo..last friday we wait until 1030 plus...guys missed their prayers...thats why...teacher should have let us take the o levels also right..anyhow say we not up to standard and all...uh.whatever!
oh yeaaa..need to ask dad about temporary rebonding hair..me and sis want to go style hair for my birthday..OHH!!!no wonder she want to celebrate my bdae..want to show of hair uh...lol...she's weird..so anyways...today i was looking at the yearbook and all..omg!!we were so cute in sec 1:) hehe^^ i like:) then now like so grown up..and i've seen how we've bonded ....my second family:)haha...i remember the times when we satu hati satu jiwer...then we all planned to fail test together..that was awesome..haha..i miss those days:)
cant believe i'm already in sec 4 now..sec 5 then after that GONE! no...must keep in touch...:)
anyways..salina keep on calling me SEI...use ur brain uh!HAHAX..oh!oh!
i never used to believe in my horoscope thingy..dad bought some book but i never bothered to read thoroughly..until yesterday..like i read monthly horoscopes of may,june,july,august,september..ALL DAMN DAMN TRUE SIA!!it even mentioned the kinds of difficulties i will go thorugh...so exact:) and this motnhs one says that i can do well in exams if i put effort..haha..i never thought that it would motivate me..but it did!!lol..okayy..enoguht of that...530 ready!!!study!!!
byebye peoples:)
-i dont give a damn how 'cool' you find it to be..it doesn't bother me.and i dont wanna be bothered..your freaking life:)

okayy..today was social studies and maths paper one right...social studies no hope luhh...she expect us to revise a total of 5 essays..wth!!and i only got the essay samples on sunday when i went on the study date...how to memorise within one day...anyways...concentrated alot on maths...too concentrated till i never eat sia..haha..stayed up till about 1230 last night..then dad chased me to bed..haiss...anyways..maths paper was so easy sia..its either i felt it was easy coz i anyhow do...or coz i studied like crazy...hehe^^
hope i pass this time...tmrw is eng paper 2 and malay paper 2..malay just revise the peribahasa thingy...then after that..whole day will be dedicated to revising sciences and maybe a little geog...this year like damn slack only sia..doesn't feel like EOY exams sia...damn damn slack..feels like only class test...well not really..i've studied even harder than this for class test...lol...but i need to do well!!next year gonna pass by damn damn fasst...only 6mnths plus..then its O's...OMG!!!!stress!!hahax...so anyways..came back arnd 1230-1...then watch tv...i fell asleep while watching spongebob..then i hear the ending song i woke up..lol..then laze around for awhile...just when i about to off tv...spongebob start again..yeaa!!! so watch tv until 230++ then sis came home...went to study little malay..but was having bad migraine...then dad give me dunno what tablet all..it helped!!yay!!so now..much better...dad say coz of stress...:) oh yeaa...today dad was talking to me..."ashvini,u sure u want to go poly?" yeap.. "next year better put in alot of effort...its gonna be very fast" yea..okay..."what course u thinking of?" sports and wellness/sports and leisure management.. "hmm..still stuck to sports uh?" yea...interest la since sec 1...but i might consider other courses "u want to do the sports course also u not fit enough..not physically and mentally fit" haha...
WTH!!!!he so so demoralizing me liao...haiss...does he really dont want me to take that course..i eman whats wrong..whats so bad about that course..its still a course...i still can get a freaking job...wahh..then can say i not physically and mentally fit some more..then who the hell won all the medals n trophies which u showcase in the hall!! URGH!!!ok...dont need to stress about that...krishna asking me to study...he like my dad sia..haha..gimme 10 minutes break only...fine uh...i go study....not now la..soon soon:)okayy...thats about it for today la...if i can update blog anytime soon.I WILL!!!coz i miss my bloggie...alright...its 5+ now...check mails n finish all the msn chats i have..then head back to studies:) andddd...11 more days to my SPONGEBOB CAKE LUHHS!!!whoooo..and sis keeps on bugging me about having a celebration for this year..at singapore flyer..tell her dowan redi...she never listen...fine uh!waste ur HARD EARNED MONEY!!hehe^^ i so evil..i want to watch paranormal activity 2....yeaaa...awesome uh...relase on my bdae...watch on my bdae..:)so yeaa...i dont want bdae celebration and all..waste money...dont plan anything ok!!
-Urgh! Your Blog Post= Crap Shit!!

went on a study date with rahziah,ayu,sha,rusydi,haziq,nani,yuhao at amk library...fun fun:)BOUGHT COOKIES N CREAM MILKSHAKE:) rusydi accompanied me...then he let me hear the pukimak song..lol?anyways..haziq kept on fiddling with my fone..then he called hata n gino -.- takde keje ah budak ni!anwsarnd 3.30+ headed to macs..yuhao came...then i ate french fries:) french fries+curry sauce+pepper=SHIOKKK!!lol..then headed back to amk library...left arnd 430..had to go home...:( so yeaa..reached home...didnt eat at all..skip dinner...was mugging the whole day..only managed to memorise one ss essay..the bondin sg one..haiss...must make sure my geog score! so now...gonna do maths...NOT CONFIDENT!!too many topics..haiss...anyways...gotta do my best luhhs...so yeaa...cant waste anymore time now..gotta head back to mugging:)

might be staying up tonight to study..tmrw going to meet rahziah and others at np then we'll head to amk library..might stop by to visit grandma awhile.anyways...ystd english n malay paper..malay was horrible..i gave up half way...haiss..anyways...came home with a bad headache and i sleptfrom 2pm until 11am today...woke up arnd 9pm last night..got msgs..so replied to all of them..then unknown number messaged...haiss..it was royston using someone else's phone..if only i knew they were both in this together...if only i knew u were with him...i really wouldnt have said all those things..i mean...its exactly how i feel and all..but it'll be to hurtful for you..and yeaa..you found out everything right?i'm still not sure if from the very beginning u had liked me...but i hope i didnt hurt you too much...im sorry:) ok..anyways...was watching karthil calling karthik today on vasanthamm..awesome movie...but i almost cried in the end...well...nevrmind that...studied awhile...then showered..i'm alone at home again..i dont like it...so silent:( so yeaa...i don't feel like myself...i don't know what's going on..haiss...it's like..i used to be ME...just this simple girl...balancing up with both studies and friends...now it's all finished...friends and studies..not balancing...too much stress again....and it's all happening again...peircing my ear myslef...SINCE WHEN DID I EVER DO THAT...it all happened this year...its so not me..anyways thats not important ..what's important is that i dont let all these bother me now...especially now during exmas.. this year passed by too fast...i couldn't catch on :( and next year..it's gonna be o levels...such a short time..have no idea if i can make it..now the fact that if i fail my O's,I'll only have PSLE is haunting me...ok...i gotta head back to studying...and i got no appetite:( alright..dad n maid n sis gonna come back soon..better head back to studies..

i never study..followed sis to northpoint..i got my shoes n shampoo and all other stuff..but i had no mood..sis talked to thilan...public phone laa...so i was running about..into so many shops to ask for more change...stoopid...i no mood still run run.. and i used FML alot of times today..well...only sis know what happened today la...and noraza...u cheated me!!!kidding la...anyways...didnt study,sure fail...i dont have that motivation.confident in me anymore...i think this yr i'll seriously drop from top 5 to average or even bottom ....haishh...coz i've been through too much...ok..i dont wanna recall it all..i'm gonna cry if i do so...but on the bright side,i've had those great friends who have always been there for me...from the beginning of the year...when i had those minor complications and misunderstandings..to the time i was the happiest person on earth...to the time i felt like ending my life... and with all those motivational talks and lectures..:) and those hugs - i'll never forget...and the time u all forced me to eat coz it was a week that i didnt eat:) i miss you all...and really a huge thanks to all...this is what happens when friends become family and family become friends...:) HUGGGGG!!today someone ask for hug...then in the end dont have laa...fine uh! kidding...tmrw is my first paper..havent revised...well,i dont give a damn...seriously..anyways,i felt damn happy seeing my sis talk to thilan at last..although i ran arnd like a mad dog:) after all she's done.she deserves it:) anyways...shamira chatting with me now..her last paper on monday..ALL THE BEST BABE!! and she asking me about my birthday party and all...lol...maybe might have la...lucky u reminded me it was ur last yr in this sch..im gonna miss her...haiss...SEDIH!!!i try to have some small celebration k..after all its my sweet 16(not gonna be so sweet after all)..ok...i'm currently addicted to jay sean-love me again...lyrics show exactly how i feel...haiss...and this song was the reason i cried my heart out..IM TIRED OF CRYING ALREADY!!like..want to cry just cry one time la...why must cry and stop..then the next day cry again...irritating siaa....and i dnt know what i can do about it.. :( and i was reflecting alot today...ALOT...just an ok? thats impossible sia..its definitely fake..ok heck that..btw, I'm Getting damn irritated about "those kind" of couples....ok...UNKNOWN NUMBER text me today..i dont know who sia...confirm the kind of guy who want to kenal kenal...i dont know..seems like one uh...that person say i noe him and he noe me..but he dowan to tell his name..WTH!!!stoopid suspense!ok..anyways..thats not important...whats important is that i go cry now and watch my drama...bye people....FRIENDS I LOVE YOU! [I See Your Face It Appears Upon The Air That I Breathe. I See Your Name In The Words Of Everything That I Read. I Tell Myself I Don't Care And I Just Hold Back The Tears Coz I'm Trying To Get Over You]

just came back from school...eating super ring now:)so anws...didnt have mass run today...haishh...was sitting at the back today...syazman and salina bully me seh!!!then physics n chemistry..teacher gave lots of hints..so yeaa..study all that confirm score sia!!ok...recess!!haha..best!!!i and noraza share macaroni besar...then salina ambik aje eh!!!and we bought another plate..whoaaaa..i damn damn full sia...2 plates of macaroni BESAR today..lol..ok thennn....ss and physics nothing much...after school was witing to get our physics stuff and malay file...then i call call alot of people...coz they leave without me...and i had to go home...would have stayed with the others...but they wanted to ask tcher qns then i no time...so after calling salina,noraza,syazman,aisyah and halime...only halima answer her fone!! THE REST OF YOU!GO THROW UR PHONE AWAY UH!so met her n salina n qiu xia at guardian..qiu xia give us choco pie!!thanksss!!accompanied them to bus stop opp the mosque..me n salina bus came first..so byebye!!then ask salina accompany me shop i want to buy super ring!!coz just now i jealous...halima buy..then never give me..hmph~ throughout the bus journey to chong pang..we were creating names...lol...SAI,SEI,STI,SKI,SPI,SRNI...LOL...im SEI-swollen ear infection..lol...cretae names for syazman,noraza,halima,aisyah,fitri..will let them know tmrw ..hehe..oh yeaa...i brought chocolate today...it all finsihed after recess...coz i share share:)and yea..ss i just pass sia..PHEW!so yeaa...went to shop and all..we creating song about the names..lol...she's weird...she singing the SARS song...but replace with SEI...stooopid!!!ok..headed home..might be gg np with sis later...need to study!!! today is already 7th october...only 15days to my bdae....lol..ONLY 1 DAY TO FYE!!!stressnyer..anyways..class planning go chalet in november..alaaa...i tot we going universal studios...i want take the mummy ride!!lol..maybe cant go...dad might not allow luhh..so anywyas...that is all for now!!!need to study...act no need uh..tmrw is eng n malay paper one....well..whatever.....i need to chat with people...got 5 chats open now!

I CANT SEEM TO STUDY!!!sis just went to take her shower..thinking of spamming her friends^^ lol....haishhh...i good girl..i'll only spam certain people...she knows who luhh..lol...so she damn hyper coz she got to know thilan's full name...i have no idea what la...so now i'm bored...still in jeans i malas to change...and now im gonna get kicked out of her lappy..she's out of the shower.SO YEAA..BUHBYE!!!
my ear damn pain i swear...like kembang abit sia...hehe^^
anws..tmrw gonna buy school shoes and whatever crap things else la....going with sis...okieee...ending post here:)

okayy..finally back from school and northpoint(with friends) and northpoint(with sis)...okayy...followed syazman n aisyah n noraza to stalk Medusa..unfortunately she wasnt there..so spent time typing msgs in noraza's phone...but not sending...coz too vulgar...haha..anyways..yesterday i msg noraza saying i peirce my ear again myself..haha..now 3 holes la sehh..i feel so punk n mangama..hahax...ystd coz i alone at home then i got nothing to do...i damn stressed about lots of stuff...and yeaa...peirce ear when ur stress right..no pain at all sia..hehe..i like:) but now got little pain uh..and yeaa sis promise not to tell dad...if not I KEEEELLLL HER UH! hahax..anyways...went northpoint with sis...saw man n aisyah n noraza for awhile...and noraza told me she was discussing with man and aisyah whether to stead with me..WTH!!!im not lesbian..hahax...besides,we're married..lol...so yeaa..sis's students were talking to her..one friend was missing..so they were searching for him...so poorthing sia..haishh...then yeaa...saw alot of people while sis was busy talking..saw yu qing,nisha n hata and jega n piriya...haha...anyways...i went shopping shopping today!!i bought lip balm-noraza wanted to use it.....GOT GLITTER!haha...ok..then bought color contact lens..SSHHHH!!dont tell my dad!hazel colour...they didnt have purkish brown...then bought mcflurry...wanted to buy school shoes..but sis was rushing me to come home..so yeaa.thats about it for today...MY EAR PAIN!!HAHA....today me and salina n mano n noraza n aisyah n fitri n halima throwing paper n eraser at each other...FUN FUN!!till teacher scold me...gundu.....and yeaaa...i finally had my hug after two days....then now i damn worried for you sia...u msg me until like that...i just had my bro hug n now U LIKE THAT!!!!why!!! i miss the old u sia.... :( dont do anything stupid pleassseeee...its a sister's request:) ok anyways...7pm rdy...I NEED TO STUDY!!!!currently chatting with navin...after i have no idea how many months!!lol..so yeaa..thats about it la...DAD WENT TO KL!!!damn last minute sia...he just told ystd...wth!!but he coming back tmrw midnight..YAY!!!ok thats about it...i go chat chat for awhile then study study study..and rahziah i saw ur sis in the bus today..but she never recognise me...lol

i'm still updating although i thought i wont be updating..well,i miss my blog!!!:) dad n maid went out...sis went with grandma to serangoon-buy vegetables!LOLNESS!!confirm sis dying right now..hehe..PEOPLE!!!!I DAMN DAMN BORED LA..I ALONE AT HOME!!!CALL ME SOMEBODY!!HAHA...and haziq..sorry couldnt follow u go study at library...coz i alone at home...urgh!!i so wanted to get out of the house..anyways...school...nothing much today la..geog was best....dennis keep on disturbing the 18 yr old tcher..damn cute...but he's weird..he seems gay...he very the female female..shy shy..hahax! and scandal n me play play fight..haha...until we never talk for one whole hour..haha!best ke per!!!so yeaa...what else uh....ok i ahvent revised much...except for geog..coz geog rox!!and yeaa..physics test i got full marks..can really see myself improving:) but for chem...no comments uh..and for EOY...i have no hope,no confidence:( so yeaa...came home i was like..APPAA!!!!I GOT FULL MARKS FOR PHYSICS[IN YOUR FACE!!!]..lol...yeaaa...so no matter what,my combined science will pass:) great...coz i know i did DAMN DAMN BAD for chem!!OK..ITS 7 ALREADY!!i damn bored lehh...seriously...alone at home..no life sia...anyways..after school..had to take bus back..coz dad just woke up since he was having a bad headache..GO SEE DOCTOR LA!!!dowan to listen...haiyoo...:( walked to np with noraza,salina,aisyah,syazman,fitri..fun fun!!laugh like crazy...then saw vishnu-donut king..lol..said hi ...he walk very the fast sia..lol...anyways..went to northpoint...BEST!!!i was so stupid today..i never bring money to school..only got $1.50 sia...wahlao..then cannot buy bubble tea or mcflurry...coz i only had 30 cents left.PATHETIC!!!and i still want to save up money to buy coloured contact lens..SHHHH!!!dont tell my dad!!hehe^^ so yeaa...walk walk arnd with noraza for awhile..then headed home...slack lke crazy...shower shower..then play handphone game...till i finish the game..lol..took me an hour! waste time only..NOW ALSO...CONCENTRATE VINI CONCENTRATE!!!WHATS HAPPENING TO YOU....and yeaaa....sean uh!!2 day ready u noe:( gundu annei....no hug again sia today...i no motivation ready..lol...you better come school tmrw..i miss you!!haha... well...i feel like dropping poa...i seriously give up sia..cant understand anything...why!!!!and malay..might be changing to malay b...considering uh...but scared later affect o level grades all..DOWAN DOWAN!i'm still aiming for the same course..I WANT THAT COURSE!!NO MATTER WHAT...haha...ok..enough blogging...i need to study...after i check my mails...

ok..i using sis lappy to update!!coz i remembered that i had something else to update!!!WELL YEAAA!!today in school..i was like"hey everyone my bdae is coming" haha..maybe i might be bringin the spongebob cake to school..cut cut during recess..yeaa!!that would be awesome...haha...but 1kg cake not enough for all the 4na piranhas n monsters..hehe^.^ okok....then right. my sis showed me something..my scandal go put on fb then delete..damn cute i swear...haha..coz my pencil case chialat rdy..it tore...so i change back to my old pencil case la...the converse one...then i realised in school that it has some stuff written in the pencil case..that i DONT WANNA GET REMINDED OF..haha..then i told noraza n halima and i dont know who else...and noraza posted this" the pencil case reminds her of him,throw it away" HAHA..CUTENESS!!!lol..i wish i could throw it away..but was a bdae present..well sorta...haha...heck whatever written in in laaa...i wont look at it rdy...haha..as long as my table and ur table is not vandalised with -blank- and -blank-,,then its fine..lol..HIATUS READY!!!hahax...ok...thats it!!my final post for the day..WOW!!i had 3 posts in a day again..hehe^.^ anyways...i havent started studying...was busy readin my compo and stuff..teacher keep on giving me low marks..because of her my most fave subject became the most hated subject..and i fail my english siaa:( i dont like!!!ok..i need to revise geography..and finally!!im going to hand in my geograohy project tmrw..yes ah!!now the only homework piled up is english-1 summary,1 compre,around 4-5 essays...wow!!and she didnt even realise that i never hand in the essay sia..well..i may hand in...I MAY!lol... okok..enough blogging..im getting carried awayyyyyyyyyy....and to my sis!!!!I LOVE YOOH!!haha... $$,dont care about it...after all u did for me...after all the shit u went through just to see me smile,to make my day better...its the least i can do laaa...so dont "ashvini i love you...thank u so much..muacks muacks" ITS NOT NEEDED!!lol... [i can never bear to see you cry.i dont ever want to see those tears on your face again,dont wanna see those marks on your hand.i know it's hard to stop,took me about 2 years..but i cant see you emo emo everyday.seriously i dont know how to handle emo people..haha *no offence..so yeaa...as everyone knows..we going through the exact same thing...and its getting better..as in ..we're focusing more on exams and our current life rather than the past..hope it all ends well la babe:) we'll have scandal day on my birthday!!yeaaa!] AND LION MAN!!!! STOP MAKING MY SIS CRY YOU LION MAN!!URGH!!!!

oh wait wait!!i want to update a little bit more!!recess time was awesome..lining up with rahziah n ayu n rosyton n denzel..then denzel talking about condominium near khatib camp and chong pand...haha..rahziah said CHONG PANG GOT NO CONDOM LA!!haha...laughed like crazy siaa...then rahziah said..chong pang got condom no condominium..lol.wth??!!haha...cute sia...and roystong thinks i got fb sia...he added some unknown pillai girl...and thought it was me??hehe^^my dear i dont have a facebook and dont intend to!!then he nicely chatting with this unknown person...once he found out it wasnt me..his reaction so cute.."omg!who the hell have i been chatting with all this while?"haha...:) ok...then after school..fazil wore school skirt...haha..best..and yeaaa..rusydi n fazil wore lip balm..then the lips become so so red..they look gay sia!!hahax!!and yeaaa...alot of people notice sia i thread eyebrow..dammit..i scared dad finds out...haishh... ok..off to studies now:) BYEBYE!!!wish me all the best for EOY!!!and to all my normal acad friends...ALL THE BEST FOR N LEVELS!!!!YOU CAN DO IT!!! -- [i still dont know why it's there.why it wasn't deleted.its over la dei! DELETE!DELETE!DELETE!]

3 Oct..1035pm..i coldnt stand it anymore.i cant concentrate on my studies..wish i could restart 2010 again.i hate this. i asked for it,and now i'm regretting it.boy do i deserve this..after all i have done,maybe i do deserve this.everyday without fail,at least one tear runs down my face.no one knows it.except myslef and maybe my sis..silent crying in the day..and non stop waterworks throughout the night..i swear i cant sleep..i'm being haunted by those memories.i love those memories but i hate it coz im thinking of it now..exams are near..and all i can think about is this? wth is wrong with me?why did i allow all this to affect me deeply?why do i get hurt easily?why now?when will this end?and yeaa..i used to think that heartpain was just an expression for heartbroken..till i really felt the pain in my heart..its horrible..so sharp,feels as though im going to die..its the worst pain ever..it relly peirces through you heart..and i get it every night..coz thats when all my sadness and regrets for the day come out..feels good that i let it all out but the hurt remains..and continues tmrw..well,i guess this is going to be neverending..and i cant do anything abouit it..ok..i dont wanna say anything else now..i just cant seem to put how i feel now in words..a total of 6 ______! only 6! and this is what happens when i loved every momentof it,when i didnt want it to end..life is too unfair at times like this..haishh..i really need a hug now..just wanna cry it all out..and i dont wanna blog anymore abt this..i dont wanna pollute my blog with unhappy posts..i just wanna get away from this life..i have been through too much 4 me to handle.just wanna be on my own..no reflections or whatsoever..just alone..in a void...yeaa..that would be the best and only option... 4oct10-school as usual...i forgot all about ystd...as usual,friends cheered me up,made my day:) AND SEAN!!!!no hug sia today:( lol..and stop getting into trouble la!!aiyoo..anyways...we all sat like a panel of judges again..syazman was auditioning..haha..cuteness...brought "love the way u lie" lyrics to school..noraza trying to sing...then wrote down for her the lyrics "unfaithful"..she n mano sang...hehe^^ cute cute!!so yeaa..rusydi drew alot of things..his drawings are damn damn nice..i took pictures:) haha...and yeaa....noraza n me talked about the same things we usually talked about...and noraza!!understand my point of view pleasee!!i need to mix with both sides...balance up !!stop thinking about what others think ok...and besides,u got the whole point wrong..ur just creating stories in ur mind...dont give a damn about what others said..u influencing me?what crap sia...serious eh...kau tk mau regret pasal bende ni semuer ok..its not ur fault..i be who i wanna be la...asal ngan diorang...dont get affected by all these..let them think what they wanna think ok...:) anws...brought famous amos cookies to school..piranhas n monsters finished it up before recess...niceee...and yeaa..i finally ate in school sia...wow!!one whole week of no sch food..now finally:) i likee:)so yeaa..today felt like a hang out day with friends...we didnt have many lessons...and yeaa..nani read the malay-english poem thingy...whenever come to her name and her father name,she wont read it out loud..haha!!SO CUTE HER REACTION!!so anyways...talkes with sean n shanmuka about kali?and tamil movies...then SCHOOL FINISHED!!yeaaa...dad fetched me...now gonna study luhh...just wanna update bout today:)and ystd..coz i typed it out in my phone last night...dont want it to go to waste..haha! SO YEAAA....----and people!!!!thanks for the concern and all..i promise i wont do it again:)

Ystd was Udhayam Finals..Went with sis, ruthrashini n anitha to mediacorp..woaahh!!!mediacory-DAMN PACKED!!got floating cap guys all..hehe! and yeaa...before we went to mediacorp,i accidently drank coke and panadol sia..!!then i was like dammit!i'm gonna die!but i didnt!!that means i have to take my EOY exams!urgh! anws..sis got the tickets..then i saw lekha!!i miss her sia...asked her to follow us but she was with her bro n friends..so yeaa..ONE HOUR OF STANDING IN THE CARPARK!waiting to get in the theatre..haha..and i just realised that i wore the exact same clothes on the day i went to watch mr.vasantham..hahax..so went in theatre rdy..lekha n friends sat beside us..we were on the top top..damn awesome sia!!i likee...we all laughed like crazy..and i keep on eyeing my aunt through the screen..so good sia..she get to sit with all the stars!!hmph~ unfair..i want work in mediacorp next time..haha! WELL,im kinda happy with the results uh...aft the show,waited for aunt to come out...then saw varman!!haha...he got moustache and beard sia...look like surya...if lekha was there confirm she'll be screaming..haha!so yeaa..took taxi to amk..go grandma house..I SO SLEEPY!!!lucky i took out contact lens ,coz i slept in the taxi otw home..haha...OH YEAAA!!!my aunt make me damn damn jealous sia!!she rebonded her hair...omgosh...hawtness!i want rebonded hair!!!nvmd..my bdae i want to temporary rebond :D yea babeh! love ystd sia..and im gonna revise today...yeay!! well..thats abt it uh..and noraza!i miss u!haha..babe,dont worry k..ur going through the exact same thing as me..EXACT!for now just keep contact with each other even if he hates you or whatsoever..at least u gotta keep the friendship going! slowly slowly ehk!and yeaa...no need to thank me rdy..after all you did for me..this was the least i could do ok..:) thanks:) okieee..gtg now....study study!!!byebye!! ----19 more days to my bdae luhh!!! cheyyy!

*sob* *sob* MY LEG VERY THE PAIN!! just came back from the psb thingy...all ok rdy!!sis starting school next year!!whoo!!IN YOUR FACE!! haha..so heck that...not important :P halfway going to the academy my freaking ankle pain(which i have no idea when it is gonna end) came back -.- damn pain siaaa..i like cannot tahan rdy..everytime i get it...its super super painful..then cannot stand long long or walk properly..urgh!!!but i dowan go surgery la..haha..pain! SO YEAAA...aft that..best siaaa...go in mrt have to stand!!!OMG!!!my legs were killing me.... :'( anwss...bought bubble tea and came home...tmrw is the udhayam thingy...i malas sehh!!!must study some more:) esp chem n physics n malay n poa... anws...anitha also going...today she talked to me...hehe^^ she cant resist talking to me... so anwss..sayang texted me..she going throught the same shit as me....feeling the same way i do..haisss...what to do luh babe...i myself havent gotten through this situation..so i cant advice u properly...meanwhile,u keep on msging him ok..and see where it goes:) love u! and DONT YOU EVER DO STOOPID THINGS AGAIN UH!!I STOP RDY U KNOW...MUST LEARN FROM ME!!!:) skipped dinner...coz i got bubble tea..and famous amos cookies(still got 25g left) :D!!! urgh!!!my leg pain cannot tahan rdy :( i dont like.!!!want to use the leg massager-osim(syazman's girlfriend,OOPS!!EX-GIRLFRIEND)haha....my leg very the small...then my dad n sis n maid got use before...and their legs very the big big..BIG!!so the stoopid massager expand luhh...now i use the osim...IT DOESNT EVEN TOUCH MY LEG!!!wahlao!!!and im the one who need it the most coz i got stoopid ankle pain...urgh!!!ok im too stressed..i dont like... yeaaa..next week,n levels starting...all the best buddies:) u can do it..JY!! so...thats bout it luhh..for the second half of the day...i seriously need to take panadol...my leg more pain....lol... byebye people!take care...love u!!haha

today very weird sia...i mean good and bad..lol! firstly had mother tongue reading period in the morning...then i KPO the tamil newspaper..pradeep face sia...so big big! lol then i had 32 PEOPLE!!!saying pradeep in the newspaper...lol..I KNOW! hahax..anyways...i notice that every friday my day ends BAD!!!haishh..so yeaa..i sat behind with shanmuka just now...then we share pocky:)i buy..hehe^^ then sean came....YAY!!!HUGGGGG!!! lol...had p.e..FINALLY FLOORBALL!!!but i sccidently hit sha head n mano leg..SORRY PEOPLES!!!!haha..so yeaa..had fun...then didnt eat during recess...wanted to study...but i ended up going to toilet with noraza n salina to slack..hahax! then never revise..so i give up rdy la...after recess was p.e rdy...so yeaa...test was HORRIBLE!!!but i hope my physics high high marks can bring up my overall:) so yeaaa...supposed to do faiz bdae...i didnt go...i just gave $$...then i went home...walked with halima n salina...then bought the kacang thingy my sis lieks at pasarmalam near school....then now eat rdy!!! WHOO!!!AND YEAAA!!!i brought home the tamil paper right..i ask sis to translate for me...haha...she translate so cute sia... one part she translate pi-ra-thi-ip thosai...haha...wtf!!! Pradeep thosai....weird sia..tamil fail!then got kilometre...she translate kilomeeder...haha....stoopid!!so yeaa...i have no idea why his pic in the papers..haha...but its for water polo-coz thats the only english word in that article:D so yeaaa...ending post here...nedd to shower shower...and go to PSB academy with sis...she want to do i dont know what..just follow oni uh... and faiz!!!MY SIS WISHED U HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOO!!! next is mine uh!!!!21 more days:) haha...but no party uh...waste money oni...but got spongebob cake!!!whoooo...cant wait:)