30-04-11
hardcore studying today.
not gonna study after this,i have no mood.
hopefully can start mugging again tmrw.
anyways,i'll have to update tumblr later. i'm in a horrible mood now..but let's just fake a smile and be happy here:)
so,tmrw is 1st may.. one month to chinamaid's birthday.. 3 days to siva's birthday!
i'll text you people:)
deactivated facebook until 12 may...so as to study for mid year.. kinda working out well. but i do get distracted..
haizz..
anyways,gonna update tumblr now:)
--lets read those blog posts all over again:)

I Fvking missed my blog.
Mye in 2 days time.FML.
i not confident. studied chemistry today,only did 3 chapters. :( pathetic right!
Some people are acting weird towards me..oh well,maybe it isn't the right phase of time.
but please la,have some freaking respect.
meanwhile,adeline and kev going quite well:) she's still an awesome racist chinamaid:)
so,i have to start studying like crazy!!!gosh,its gonna be hard.
anyways,i don't wanna waste more time blogging ... MUST STUDY!!!!

26042011.
Hello Stalkers.
3 days to mid year exams:)
today was chemistry test,did not study=High chance of Failing:)
gotta start mugging now.
dad went overseas today,coming back on friday i guess.
oh well,today a random number texted me.
then i intro him to adeline.. and things are going AWESOME!
haha.they've become so close in a day...and even planning to meet!
whoa! I'M AN AWESOME MATCHMAKER!!
alright,i shall not get carried away blogging.
i shall try to blog again before this friday. if i don't,then i'll blog once exams are over. which is 12 may i think!
bye people<3

sis bdae party was awesome:) cake was delicious!!thanks rahziah!!
and thanks to lekha and rahziah for coming..
anyways,chem test tmrw,goota study... mye this friday=DIE!

okay!!all thats aside!!!
to the both of you!!! ---
i swear i have no idea why small misunderstandings between you both turn out to be such great fights. i mean,you people are like super close friends right? can't you remain that way?
ok.i'm not scolding or siding anyone here but seriously..
firstly, you are sort of overpossesive,not willing to listen to other's POV..and when i try to explain things to you,you dont wanna listen.. you think i'm siding him..
yes,i am siding him coz i know he isn't in the wrong. i know he may have sounded harsh and all,but you've got to understand people at certain times.and i'm sure he apologised like a million times! coz that's what he always does.. please change can? i don't like to hear about you both having problems... i'm stuck in between!!

scandal!!thanks for lending me you phone today!!i wanna use everyday can..text people!!hahaha!!! kidding,but if can,then i want!!!
alright,post ending here... REVISION REVISION REVISION!!!
halfway through filing! gonna start revision...
haizz..bye peoples!!!
HAVE NO IDEA WHEN I'LL BLOG AGAIN!!

Hello World.
sorry for not updating my dearest bloggie,its just that i've been quite busy lately..Mid year exams have been pulled forward to next week. and i'm so not prepared.
and the reason exams are pulled forward is due to the elections. -.- great job government!
okay. my phone sms limit has blasted like ALOT!
so i'll have to use sis phone to text people..
well,next month i need to plan how to use my sms's wisely..
haha..i over-texted 3 people! Siva,Noraza and Shiva..
lol..i hate not having unlimited texts!
sis had to send out invites for her bdae due to this.. sucky right?
well,currently texting shiva and siva from sis phone..
anyways,tomorrow rahziah is coming over to make cake.. well,dad blurted it out to sis:( so now,sis knows i'm making a cake.. its gonna be awesome:)) thanks rahziah!love ya <3
and yeah,had home-based learning today.. not bad,but i prefer school..  :P
and i forgot to do maths homework online -.-! must do tmrw with rahziah:)
okay. enough of blogging now!
i wanna update my tumblr:)

Orang tu yang tengah terase skarang, BOLEH PEGI MAMPOS!
social studies test today..sucked like hell.
and people,i dont care whatcha think. i don't mind it..
anyways,gonna fetch dad from airport later..imysm!

noraza,whats wrong with us? i mean,we're seriously drifting apart.. we barely talk. we don't text much. last text was on sunday,i cant believe it..
i mean,i'm not jealous that you may have better friends than me,but i know you feel that somethings weird between us..please,change it can... i miss talking about everything to you...we'll talk on monday:)

oh well,today was an awesomely weird day..
i brought the fascini sweets? yea,that long stuff..
and me and salina took one end of it..ate too much.got to close... WHOA! too close.. and adeline confirm jealous:) haha..
anyways,i better stop blogging for now.. gonna have my shower.. and head to airport.. i wanna buy pepsi:)

and dude,are u like ok? u never reply to my text for the first time.. and we didnt talk much that day... haishh...

dear E.N, why are u being so random... i went through so much just to get rid of you.. and now you're back again saying you miss me.. puh-lease,u never even met me!and i won't text you... coz i don't wanna waste precious texts on you..
REMEMBER,YOU LIED TO ME... u think i'll ever forgive you for such a lie.. DREAM ON !

came back from fazil's birthday party arnd 7.. almost got into deep shit with dad..  i hope he's fine now.. sorry!!
and to ayu and sha: ALL THE BEST FOR SYF TMRW BABES!!jiayous^^
anyways,i had malay class test today.. no one informed me about it:( i wasnt prepared= FAIL!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FAZIL AND JEFF AND CODY NGUYEN AND CIKGU NIZAM AND EDORA!
 fazil ate chilli sauce on his birthday as a forfeit:) it was awesome.. got pics and videos..
alright,tmrw gonna head to school with rahziah since dad's away..
okay,short post just ended.. i dont have the mood to blog.. plus i need to do study crap thingies:)

Hello Online World.
i woke up surprisingly early today.
i had my breakfast-a piece of ferrero rocher :)
dad went overseas and me & sis gave class a skip today.
i guess i'll be heading for hair treatment in the afternoon.. i found $30 buried under my school stuff on my study desk! awesome much:)
oh well,its only the start of the day,i got nothing to blog about..
i tried revising poa yesterday.. OMG,I SWEAR IT'S THE SUCKIEST SUBJECT EVER!
i can't seem to understand anything:((
haishh..i'm still gonna revise:)
aite,i'm gonna end this post here... i'm so bored i swear!

She Deserves The Attention And Affection Of A Boy Who Would Do Anything For Her. You'll Regret It And You'll Realise You Miss The Girl Who Shined For You. Do Her A Favor, Since You Never Did Before. Don't Talk To Her, Don't Look At Her, Don't Give Her Any Idea That You Care Again. If You Were Dumb Enough To Leave Her In The First Place, She's Smart Enough To Never Go Back.

Hi Stalkers :)
today was quite a good day..social studies was free period.. then geography was crappy so i just stayed in my class.. we talked about the times when we first met each other and how everything was so awkward..so fun recalling those moments..i remember how me and nani used to be so close with lekha and jasmine..and slowly we moved on to another group of friends.
well,friendship situations are getting bumpy now.and i finally do realise who my true friends are. and i swear that i'm gonna treasure them forever<3
oh well,all that problems aside now,i just hope things get fine kaes. i don't want additional problems in my life.
so,dad is going to phillipines this sunday...i'm kinda missing him nowadays.. he's going overseas quite often:( he just came back 2 days ago then POOF! this sunday till next friday,no dad at home:((( take care!i love you :)
sis is starting her orientaion thingy on monday.. hehe^^ you gotta wake up first! :))
anyways,we got our syf results today..bronze... we dropped from silver to bronze.. my last syf and we got bronze..depressing really.. but well,i gave it my best i swear!and i'll come back next year to see how dance is going:)

and i miss noraza so damn much!!gosh,three days without ur company was horrible.. how am i ever gonna survive poly without you:((
anyways,we'll make the rings soon and we'll catch jb movie soon and we'll get chains soon ok scandal:)
I'm A True Belieber!! haha...whoa,so not happening!
oh well,at least there's no more cca for the moment,can concentrate on o levels.. and POA TEST WAS SO DARN SUCKISH!! I DESPERATELY NEED TO BUCK UP.. I'M SLACKING WAY BEHIND TIME:((
ok,i'm done-ded here.. i need to go for hair treatment soon.. my hair curling at the ends ready thanks to hairspray! urgh!i'm so obsessed with straight hair:)

TOMORROW IS SYF!
gosh,so stressful!today had the rehearsal at UCC..went quite good uh..but alot of people's skirts tore-.-
anyways,after that,intensive dance practice back in school...woah,they actually should be smart enough to allow us to rest the day before SYF... i mean seriously,later we no energy for the competition,then they will scold us..
so yeah,dance dance dance till about 5+... my knee bone swollen,coz teacher keeps on asking me to do the "falling down" step...gosh...I NEED A KNEE GUARD!!effing pain..
i put muscle rub all over both my legs...rubbed it like some freaking moisturiser! and now my legs are burning!!
DAMMIT,i cant wait for syf to be over...
and you, are you like angry with me or something??never message me rdy:( oh well,ur choice...
okayy..tmrw gonna meet up with boyfriend and best friend and head to school:)
and and,i passed the ring to noraza,DAMN BIG SIA!!!lets make it a chain kaess...then we go engrave another ring:)SCANDALS FOR LIFE!
aite,need to start packing for tmrw.. gosh,i hope i dont get i stage fright!
WISH ME LUCK PEOPLES!! <3

dear tumblr,i'm going to update you.. i've finally become sad.

a sucky sports day..
i feel so disapointed. its the first time i left the stadium without a medal in my hand..
ran 4 x 100m... came in second during the race.. but when they tallied the timings and all,i guess we came in 4th...haishh..sad life..
but i'm so happy with those who ran 4 x 100m!!they really really did their best... i love you girls..
guys won 3rd? for 4 x 100 i think.. congrats guys!! you won because we supposted you:)
fazil won sportsman of the year... sportwoman of the year went to some 4 express kid.. THAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ME!! :(
oh well,its the last sports day for us.. so,everyone was so kecoh today..
and 5 sodium, i love you to bits and pieces:)
poly got sports day anot??? i not satisfied uh... if dont have then i join athletics in poly..haha! CMI!

oh well,i headed to northpoint with mano and rahziah after sports day.. sent ms siva to her block then walk to northpoint.. bought light blue contact lens to wear on wednesday's syf...
tmrw is final rehearsal for syf.. its gonna be at UCC.. our time slot i think around 9+??
oh well,i just hope i dont cock up tmrw and the day after..
aite,gonna have my shower now.. i stink..!

"YOU ALL ARE FOOLS. YOU ARE STUPID. WHY ARE YOU SUCH A NUTCASE."
i've come to a point where i cant take anymore of this shit.
dad,you once told me to help others,good or bad to you. whether they care or dont care about you. whether it benefits or does not benefit you. as long as you helped..
precisely,i followed what you said.
i helped clean the school's dance room today after dance,and i come home exhausted only to get scolded from you?
you dont allow me to explain?
and then you question me,why are you stupid to help them out.. why did you volunteer. who asked you to do this..
FOR THE LAST TIME! I ALREADY TOLD YOU!
SYF IS THIS WEDNESDAY!the dance room has been a mess since i joined the cca.. its about time we cleaned up coz we have no freaking place to hang our new costumes. whats wrong about that?i'm doing a good thing right? its benefitting me and my fellow members..
i just hate how you contradict yourself sometimes..its all very confusing.
and i hated how you scolded my friends too.. i mean,whatever it is,DON'T EVER INCLUDE MY FRIENDS!i feel so offended..its like you're not supportive of me,and now you're not supportive of my friends either? in fact,you should be thanking them... because we didnt finish cleaning up totally, we left once you got mad at me over the phone... they were concerned,they didnt want me to get more scoldings.and that was why i came back by 5pm! if i stayed any longer,i would have been back around 6.. cant you please understand that.. you keep on thinking i've been mixing in bad company since sec 1. how can i convince you they arent bad? i've tried everything..but you just wont listen.

i dont like people giving me unnecessary scoldings.. insulting me.. its like,the whole world is against me..
i'm already stressed up with things.. please dont add to the pile of problems i have... its killing me.
i'm not in good terms with a few people now.. i think i just need a time out for myself...everythings so horrible in my life now.. its worse than 2010.
-pick the world up and drop it on my fucking head.

BECAUSE I'M USELESS. I'M A BURDEN.I'M A MONKEY,RASCAL,IDIOT,FOOL.

and i mean what i say now..those 3 days of adam khoo's workshop did me good for the next few days..i swear that now,i've lost every bit of confidence in myself..that self esteem or whatever crap.i feel unwanted,left out.
i want my confidence back,i want my happy life back.
and the reason i cried was not cause i'm guilty,i never did a mistake today.i know it. i just cried because you dont understand me and i had no chance to talk.. even if i did,you wont believe me right?
SO WHATS THE POINT?