AYEEEE, MY NEW PEACE EAR STUDS<3

woah.i damn pissed!typed one whole long post,then it never got posted-.-
SO FRUSTRATING CAN!
anyways,lemme summarise it all uh.. i lazy type long long
had malay o levels today.. sucked. confirm fail...
after that went to meet chinamaid and sean...
went to causeway to buy barbell and I BOUGHT PEACE EAR STUDS!!!damn nice i swear:)
after that,went to timezone... got cute guys^^ tsk, i not despo.
then played percussiong master like kiddos...
sean beat the drum damn indian style da!
lols..
after that,sean went back,aww... nevermind!at least we talked longer than usual!
then,went to amk hub with chinamaid... TO BUY KOI!!! finally,i had bubble tea...
she keeps on pronouncing it as KO-WEE... tsk. wanna act sophisticated.
anyways,met noraza and salina for badminton arnd 7.15?
then badminton-ed awhile... headed home...
woah... awesome outing i swear.. i and chinamaid really bonding! WE TIGHT YO'
ok,i lazy to type more..
TSK. please don't attitude rdy can! idk whats wrong with you sia... its not us.. but you. YOU'VE CHANGED.

TSK. I WANNA UPLOAD PIC OF MY EAR STUDS, BUT STUPID BLOGGER KEEPS ON HANGING-.-

omg! blogger is irritating me.
i wanna change new playlist,and i tried like a gazillion times, and it keep on showing empty playlist..
stupid sial.. so i damn pissed off,and i dont think i wanna add music to my bloggie until i have the patience to do so again:)
anyways,today was the last day on malay intensive!LIKE FINALLY..
gotta start revising for malay o levels. i'm not so confident thogh..
anyways,noraza!i hope we dont have anymore misunderstandings again.. this might very well be our last year together,fights cannot happen!
i'm addicted to next to you-chris brown,justin bieber..
well,chris brown made it a great song! not bieber -.-!
LOLS... anyways,i dont wanna blog much.. i got other things to do:)

HELLO!
supposed to go gym with noraza..
last minute,we just ran one round in the stadium.. then too malu to go in the gym coz mostly guys...
O.o!we'll go next time.
headed to lower seleter..play in the water... then noraza pushed me around..we didnt wanna get wet..
then all of a sudden,the 3 indian skater guys zoomed right past us.
and thye just sat nearby looking at us play..
ugh!i feel so watched!
so yeah.. i was having fun and all.. knowing they were staring at me though.. especially the one in black singlet-CUTE!
so heck that,dad called! gave me a huge fright coz i only told him i'll be at stadium..
so yeah,rushed back coz of him...
then dad said he going stadium too,i told him we gonna play badminton with adeline and salina...
SO!!!! me and noraza went back to lower seletar(like despo's)
all for those 3 stupid guys..
but sadly they skated off without seeing us:(
dammit!
anywayssss... met salina and adeline.. four of us played badminton near skate park(great place to guywatch)
i was hoping those 3 guys were ther... unfortunately they weren't:(
SAD LIFE!
so well,sat on the bleachers at skate park after badminton... till about 7... then headed home with adeline..
noraza and salina left earlier..i dont wanna say why...
i'm just irritated at the attitude you gave me today.
i didn't do a shit,and you just dragged her along and went home WITH MY JERSEY!WITH ADELINE'S RACKET.
haizz..idk what to say luhh.... everyone has AP.
but i didnt expect yours to be like this...
so well,gonna head out soon...
and i wanna play badminton with adeline more frequently..
she play badminton so good LIKE ME!
haha... then we can go guywatch together:)))
aites, i sound so despo in this post...
buy i'm just a girl right! i admire cute guys and hot ones too..
and it normal for a girl to wanna see a cute guy's face..
yeah,i'm just normal k!

one more malay compo left to do.
I'm so lazy these days. tmrw is performance,i dont wanna perform:(
hopefully,its gonna be my last performance:)
anyways,yesterday was kinda unexpected.. well,shall not mention more about it..
i'll see how things go:)
so yeah,quite boring nowadays. i dont even know what to blog about-.-
malay o levels,next week monday. havent started studying yet. DIE!
haha...alright,i gotta watch tv and facebook. and tumblr:)

i havent used the com for ages(5 days)!!!
anyways,performance on monday at school.
suckish,they said we could step down after our SYF. and it's our choice to perform for any other crappy dances at wherever the hell.
and now,we are freaking forced to do this performance,again with little notice!
i swear i ain't gonna perform on speech day,if you force me,i'll make sure my dad kills you:)
anyways,for the whole of next week,i gotta survive,malay intensive.
DIE!today, was malay the whole day..boring ad hell.. so,chatted with noraza,salina and azurah..
talked about weird stuff,and all those memories..
nice day indeed:)
then had dance practice... usual crap luhhs.
walked home with rahziah,bought the awesome-st bubble tea:))
i told noraza about my "plans for the future" Haha!She's too awesome that she guessed that i would never survive with such plans..
haizz...TRUTH HURTS!
anyways,i wanna update tumblr ready.. thanks goodness i acually deleted my tumblr posts which were linked in facebook..
i guess,my tumblr shall always remain a secret:)
or maybe i should create a new tumblr-with crap stuff,and link that to facebook?i'll think about it.
-addicted to misery business(paramore) i just simply love the song.. jump around the house and sing that song..LOL!
bye people,i hope i can blog soon:)
P.S-HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE STUPID IDIOT(SHANMUKA) AND SAHARI:))

I guess i'm NOT that STRONG of a person.
Yes,I'm Emotional,Insecure,Unconfident and LIFE just SUCKS at times like this.
I Don't know WHATS GOTTEN INTO ME.
These kind of posts should be on TUMBLR. but heck,i know more people read my BLOG and only 3 people know my TUMBLR.
Maybe I'm just NOT READY to face REALITY. It's gonna PUSH ME to the ground and DRILL ME too hard.

I DON'T THINK I EVEN KNOW MY TRUE SELF.
Its like I've been HIDING too much from everyone and even myself.

Okay,I'm gonna end this post here before i get all EMOTIONAL again.

woke up at seven+ to go to RP for some talk..
quite motivational though.. mentioned alot about EGO!!which i realise i do have...^^
anyways,finally back home.. i sprained my neck-.-
oh well,tmrw there's school and not to mention P.E!!!
like finally,two weeks of no running around like a crazy monkey...haishh..this is gonna be fun.
anyways,i have successed in maintaining my job as a catalyst:)
I 'M EFFING AWESOME:) solved(well,more of helped out) in sis's problem...
now i have my own-.-!
btw,i wanna watch fast and furious 5! i heard its awesome... must plan!! so need to watch:)

Shamira's birthday today!!! happy birthday babe:) stay prettay!!! love ya to bits and pieces<3

anyways,i gotta update tumblr by next week.. got "tumblr" things to rant about.. my life is so suckish! yet at the same time awesome in its ways:)

I MISS THE BUGIS OUTING SO DAMN MUCH!!!

we really bonded during the outing.. so sweet<3

anyways,hopefully another outing like this will come about:) its our last year together,we need this kind of things!

oh well,THEY'RE ALL SO AWESOME:))

anyways,i got nothing else to blog about..my day just started.. hahax..

-I hope this doesnt end soon. i'm trying real hard, can't bear to see ya'll apart:)

END OF M.Y.E:)
i did horrible!
anyways,today was THE BEST DAY EVER!
although exam sucked and i got to know i failed physics REAL BAD:(
headed to bugis with rahziah(hottest) noraza(cutest) mano(prettiest) syazman(handsomest) and of course me(sexiest) LOLS!
i spent alot-coz i had money:)
and yeah,this outing was the BESTEST!!!
(and dude,thanks for reminding me what day today was... it wasnt needed)
anyways,heck that,ate pastamania... niceee:)
rahziah say i look sexy!! haha.. i kembang:) she looked awesome.. in fact,everyone did:)
so,bought a baggy blouse with noraza.. a pink tight fit blouse with rahziah... turquoise heels.headbands and an awesome off-shoulder blouse...
rahziah say i look nice in off-shoulder and skinnies.. haha!everything rahziah say:))
took tons of pictures at bugis and northpoint carpark...most of it on facebook:)
and yeah,i met EYE-TO-EYE with an awesomely cute guy at bugis!!! so fvcking cute.. and we passed by each other like three times!! dammit,should've asked for number.LOL!
oh well,im satisfied with today.. had lota of fun.. and i had an awesome time shopping!

TO THE DEAREST BESTIES: thanks for an awesome outing today. i dont know why,it was absolutely special:) and yeah,thanks alot for just being there with me today.. i love you to bits! :)

4 more days till i reactivate facebook:)
anyways.i miss temasek poly!
haha..i miss my eye candy:( [HE SO EFFING CUTE]

ok,enough of that. i just finished the vocabulary thingy..HECTIC MUCH!

I gotta head back to studies..
just wanted to blog for the fun of it:)
bye peeps.
will try to blog soon!
<3

5 more days to end of MYE!
rahziah came over today to do poa together.. AWESOME:) i kinda understand better:)
then we did the vocabulary thingy... GCE O LEVEL WORD YOU SHOULD KNOW!
yeah!its gonna be our thing:)
anyways,texted shiva and noraza today..
that stupid cute guy forgot about me!
haha!planning to slack for the rest of the day..
and yeah!!!that movie me and rahziah watched was awesome! except they had the sex part which was O.O!
ANYYYYWWAYYYSSS...
i wanna go out! i feel imprisoned at home:(
dad went for meeting,and im fvcking bored!
coz got no facebook!!
oh well,i got nothing else to blog:) bye!

Vini: I cut my hand with set square till it broke.lol
Noraza: Break? next time you use sword la. more power!
haha.. Sarcasm much!
i've been counting.. 4 people asked me to stop cutting hand.. and around 10+ are like:wow,u cut hand?
EPIC REACTIONS!!
anyways,irza,IMY!!and i'll try not to cut hand.. its become a habit ..but i'll try stop kaes:) for you,and everyone else who asked me to.
anyways..english and malay paper 2 today.. english was hard(this is the first time i'm saying so)
malay was average,its was easy(either coz i understood it,or i anyhow write crap shit:D)
Oh well,whats done is done.. after school,met rahziah at northpoint ..bought stationery..
otw home,i was listening to music and one random guy from chung cheng high waved at me.. WEIRDO ATTENTION SEEKER SIA!
reached home,a little tv and piano.. text text shiva.. and going to TP later.. i lazy sia!!!!
HAHA..ok,today is slacking day.. tmrw is "mug poa till i die" day..
AWESOME RIGHT!

and yeah,i'm tired of making decisions by myself.i'm tired of getting worked up about small issues. i just wanna let life lead me where its destined to lead me to..
like,i seriously had enough of ups and downs in life.. and yeah,cutting my hand is ony "temporary" relief of such crap..
TO HELL WITH LIFE.

COUNTDOWN:
-6 MORE DAYS-END OF M.Y.E!
-9 MORE DAYS TO SHAMIRA BDAE:)
-14 MORE DAYS TO SHANMUKA BDAE:)
-17 MORE DAYS TO GINO BDAE:)
-23 MORE DAYS TO GRANDAD BDAE:)

alright,i'm done here! enough blogging.
random thoought: i wanna delete my tumblr!

exams are going horrible..
haizz..worst mye ever.
gonna fail badly for sure:(
anyways,i'm so sorry to those people i showed attitude to over these past few days..
partly coz of what im going through now..just hope i'll be fine..
but yeah,i'm stressed up at stuff..
and i'm really sorry that i did something you told me not to:(
its already a habit..
oh well,i better start on revising for maths paper 2 and geog paper tmrw:(
and,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CUTE GUY!! :D
i fvcking miss facebook:((

She Started Writing Notes And Keeping Them Under Her Pillow. Then She Started Writing Them On Her Pillow Case, Hoping They Would Help Her Have Better Dreams. And If She Couldn't Sleep, She Could Just Read Them And Be Reminded Of Something So Beautiful That Her Heart Would Swell And Her Bones Would Sigh, And Just For A Second,  THE WHOLE WORLD WOULDN'T SEEM LIKE IT WAS GOING TO CRUSH HER.

Yesterday, I've finally realised that i was such an asshole all this while.
I just didn't want to face reality,coz i knew it would hurt me real bad.
But something made me change my mind yesterday,and yeah,its fvcking hurting me now.
I've told lies to countless people,only to make myself feel better. They support me all the while,but i do feel the hurt inside coz I know thats not how i really think.
I'm still insecure,unconfident and hopeless.I don't have the courage to tell people what I really feel. I'm afraid to lose people .
Listening to I Miss You by Go Radio. That may have made me realise how dumb i was.
- And Right Now Where You Are I Guess You're Over It.
- But I Can't See How You Without Me Could Possibly Make Any Sense.
- And Right Now All You Need Is Just Some Time To Mend.
- Oh Well Take All You Need But My Sanity Is Forever Riding On This.
-SPELL IT I M-I-S-S I MISS YOU.

gosh,i can't believe i just told almost everything.
but you know what, FML. i just gotta live with it.
K.BYE. i'm gonna learn an emo song(go radio-why i'm home) on piano.
(7 marks...)