might be staying up tonight to study..tmrw going to meet rahziah and others at np then we'll head to amk library..might stop by to visit grandma awhile.anyways...ystd english n malay paper..malay was horrible..i gave up half way...haiss..anyways...came home with a bad headache and i sleptfrom 2pm until 11am today...woke up arnd 9pm last night..got msgs..so replied to all of them..then unknown number messaged...haiss..it was royston using someone else's phone..if only i knew they were both in this together...if only i knew u were with him...i really wouldnt have said all those things..i mean...its exactly how i feel and all..but it'll be to hurtful for you..and yeaa..you found out everything right?i'm still not sure if from the very beginning u had liked me...but i hope i didnt hurt you too much...im sorry:) ok..anyways...was watching karthil calling karthik today on vasanthamm..awesome movie...but i almost cried in the end...well...nevrmind that...studied awhile...then showered..i'm alone at home again..i dont like it...so silent:( so yeaa...i don't feel like myself...i don't know what's going on..haiss...it's like..i used to be ME...just this simple girl...balancing up with both studies and friends...now it's all finished...friends and studies..not balancing...too much stress again....and it's all happening again...peircing my ear myslef...SINCE WHEN DID I EVER DO THAT...it all happened this year...its so not me..anyways thats not important ..what's important is that i dont let all these bother me now...especially now during exmas.. this year passed by too fast...i couldn't catch on :( and next year..it's gonna be o levels...such a short time..have no idea if i can make it..now the fact that if i fail my O's,I'll only have PSLE is haunting me...ok...i gotta head back to studying...and i got no appetite:( alright..dad n maid n sis gonna come back soon..better head back to studies..