at around 7+..last minute plan to go the the most hated place of mine..SERANGOON ROAD!i dont like...so left house arnd 715..reached there oni about 830..coz of the effing traffic!then ate first..sean called me..talk talk awhile...headed to the expo area for deepavali shopping..actually,i got no interest luhh..haha...but yeaa...while walking arnd,i heard a familiar voice,perhaps seen a familiar face..but i didn't care..thought it was just a look alike..and when me and sis were in one shop...it wasn't a look alike...she was right behind me..with i have no idea who...okayyy...i saw her 3 times...SWAY!!lol...anyways..heck that...sis bought the "heavenly" cookies..lol..then suddenly got fireworks..like for about 10-15minutes non-stop...swesome...but i only managed to video 28 seconds..HAHA!!!busy listening to My L.O.V.E:) ok then...headed to the car..was alrdy 930..i thought we going home...then dad was like lets browse arnd some more-.- i damn tired rdy!!so yea..quick quick bought costumes...then headed home...i lost my earpiece rubber:( haha...oh yeaa..my costume is turquoise:) nice...but need A LOT of tailoring..hehe^^well..thats about it luhhs..gonna be midnight rdy..need to watch some movie with sis ....i malas urhh...oh!me and sis created this today... [ Anandan must be really scared...Coz he's got two beautiful daughters:) ]HAHA...AWESOMEEE!!

today supposed to go for aqeil's bdae celebration at ayu's house...but unfortunately i couldnt:( anyways..yesterday concert...awesome!!!shankar sang the breathless song...omg!!!i love him..hahax!still wonder how he manage to sing it sia...awesome:) concert ended arnd 1130...reached home by 1+ omg!!i damn sleepy..slept like a pig last night..and woke up at 3pm today...actually woke up arnd 11 today la..thn the stoopid drilling gave me aneffing headache...haiss..anyways..monday,tuesday,wednesday got coaching and dance..but 4na dancers will be going for coaching...oh!!good news!!!yesterday i got to know i'm not gonna be dancing the first part...which is the evil evil part..haha..teacher say i dance to feminine...HAHA!!okay.that's a great relief:) cant wait for the part i'm gonna dance:D oh yeaa!2 days back i tried lerning bila cinta on keyboard...first part was awesome...then after that gone case rdy..lol..thinking of learning anthr yiruma song:) either love hurts,I... or till i find you....confirm will take about a year to master..hahax...ok...thats all for now...dad gonna come in the room soon....

im back home..last day of school today...its the release of report books and half the class didnt come:( so yeaa.came school...then i playing with my phone..swing here,swing there...and it flew easily 10m away from me..almost went in the drain sia..but thank god no scratches:D so..then headed to class..sending tons of songs from nani's fone..halima playing my handphone game..noraza was busy "flirting" lol..then had to do the Mr.Chin thing..so went around the whole class..ask them write stuff they wanna say to him..then was recess:D didnt eat...had to re-write everything the class wrote for him...coz my handwriting nice..haha.like as if..so yeaa..after that...they managed to finish up the surprise during physics period...so..physics period got holiday homework and all...and we gonna have NAME TAGS sia...u think we ur bloody dogs uh..so leceh sia...no space for my full name:P actually,it's i dont want to put my full name..hehe...okayy..after school..did last minute touch-up on the surprise...took pics with him...the guys hug him...lol..she so huggable:) then he give us CHOCOLATE!!!yay!!after that..wanted to find dance studio for mafias to practice next years' events..coz they might not have time to practice nxt year..got o levels...so must start now...we tried so hard..still couldn't get the dance studio open..coz needed teacher-in-charge..haiss..then haziq was like" Alamak..Rojak Sentiasa Rojak Uh!" haha...so true!!!naik pangkat da mcm gini uh...stooopid!!ok...then after easily about half an hour..left school..headed to SKP...guys wanted to check out the jabbawockeez look-alike mask...then fazil and haziq headed back to school..still trying to get dance studio..well,i hope u get it:D walked with ayu and rahziah..rahziah narrating her story...then ayu went home..rahziah teman me to bus stop...within a minute,the bus come-.- poorthing she walk all the way sia..haha...oh...AND MY SCHOOL IS CRAZY!!!next week..gonna have coaching lessons...ok thats fine...then indian daance like almost every day!!are they that crazy..i mean..i know its SYF and all..but hello!!we need our holidays too..so i wont be going for almost half of the days..cant go for 4 days? coz of coaching..then might be going overseas too...then 2 nov and 28 december cannot go...coz of..hehe^^ got la...haiss..i now no mood for dancing seh...tmrw also have:( but...me and rahziah gonna have mac breakfast:) yay!!!! oh..my house still noisy..toilet breakers still inhabiting the house..haiss..and dad just came home..so gotta stop blogging:)

well..back from school..after school.collected rusydi's guitar then headed to northpoint..buy stuff..headed home...slack slac..and now i'm here..okayy...TAGGED!is effed up...seriously...i dont know what's going on..how "unknown" people start adding...i mean..thats the point of mutual friends..but this case is way overboard...and its related to the same story...come on la...i just feel like deleting my tagged account if this continues...and i'm not in a state to "talk" right now...so,why do you people keep bugging me?GIMME A BREAK WOULD YOU! enough of this "i want to get to know you" crap...for girls its fine..but guys!it's all gonna lead to the same path...and yeaa,you know what i mean...i've got two of this kind of guys so far.AND I DONT LIKE IT!so..please..just for once..LEAVE-ME-ALONE!

1230 now..in school..supposed to do some survey thingy..but in the end,there was no survey..lol..so yeaa..today was fun...almost late for school..then during social studies period.me,noraza,adeline and mano so called "cabut"..me and noraza go toilet..slack slack..then mano and adeline came along..slack some more...tie tie hair..lol.then come back to class..teacher asked us to follow her...we had to copy the corrections and do reflection.WAS AWESOME!haha..then we sacrificed recess for that la...but we still ate uh..then very late rdy..after bell rang,we ate..managed to finish up before we all went back to clas..had no malay...then now IM FREEZING!in the computer lab...haha...and rahziah watching personal taste..part 10 on youtube..haha..once they french kiss..."OMG!!!SO SWEEETT!!" thats the only words coming out of rahziah's mouth..hahax...ok...i cannot blog rdy..MY HAND FREEZING!!!

today started as an awesome day..but ended quite rough:( firstly,it was total slack time in school..so was with a few kentalians...cracking jokes and watching them dance...i thought those laughters will make my day...unfortunately,i was wrong..well,CONGRATULATIONS TO MY DEAR RAHZIAH!!!for getting top in level and class for EOY!!!she got all A1 sia...i jealous..lol..no la..im glad with what i've got..didn't expect to get that high after all the slacking throughout the year..but i know i could do MUCH MUCH better...second and third in class...i dont know who..i got fourth...in level and class...Weyy,at least i get my edusave scholarship again:) so yeaa..im kinda happy bout academic results..BUT!!!!!MY PHYSICAL FITNESS THEY GIVE ME BRONZE 0.0 how the hell did i get a bronze??i want my gold!!!next year for sure uh!and another thing..MY WEIGHT-UNDERWEIGHT!!!urgh!!!im alrdy 40 waddd...gosh,i feel so anorexic..haha..so anyways...played with noraza iphone...the veg samurai game-i got new high score for the chaos mode!110:)WEE..then play the haunted house thingy..damn scary sia..lol..well...end of the day..i kinda cried...we got to know the bad news...we were all damn shocked...but i think me and rahziah got affected the most...haiss...dont worry...we both planned what to do...i just hope it helps...ok..after all that sad heartbreaking news and all...we were planning for some things on thursday^^ cant wait...and all of a sudden i miss mr chin..me and rahziah were looking back to the times when we were standing at the back of the class...haha..and when i had to sit on the floor for not bringing textbook..the day i got known as a "rebellious" student. and also when i started slacking and all...haiss...but i still managed to pass everything including POA:)...i got B4 for malay ..unbelievable:) yeaaa...so TONS OF MEMORIES I SWEAR...and then we were at the bus stop...talking bout our friends...all their problems too...yeaa..we all have problems right? and how we wish to help one another....but at that moment,on hearing her story..i actually put myself in her position for that time...it's damn frustrating and difficult for her.haiss..i hope everything gets better for her:) CHEER UP BABE!!I'm always there for you,if you need anyone to talk to okayy...and u better be there for me,when i need someone to talk to..haha!!!oh yeaaa..i went to return CDs rdy..FINALLY!!so my day ended like this...i dont like today...although it was results day and all...i never expected this bad news to happen...haiss...well, enough of all this complications... [ I'm Really Gonna Miss You Like Crazy Bro:( Please Don't Give Up. And Please Keep In Touch With All Of Us:) ]

I promised not to hurt myself anymore.but what happened yesterday night?i promised to live my life right here,right now.but why does everything haunt me again? i've broken too many promises with myself.and im gonna do something about it. i know the root cause of this shit.the cause for my sadness,sorrows,weakness and depression. and i'm gonna put an end to this,Today.I'm not gonna get hurt anymore. I'm not gonna shed a single tear no more. I'm not gonna live in the past. i've been through too much and i don't want to "relive" those days..from the time i was primary 3 till now..it was just too much to handle..it still is too much to handle.. and i'm keeping all this to myself..i'm not letting anyone know about it:( so..today is the last day for the "too much hurt". I'm moving on to a 'happier' me:) And You'll notice HOW i will stop this'hurt' everyone will know how i will stop this hurt coz its gonna be obvious. Although i don't know how long i can keep to this promise.............. [ Babe, I'm Concerned ]