I MISS THE BUGIS OUTING SO DAMN MUCH!!!

we really bonded during the outing.. so sweet<3

anyways,hopefully another outing like this will come about:) its our last year together,we need this kind of things!

oh well,THEY'RE ALL SO AWESOME:))

anyways,i got nothing else to blog about..my day just started.. hahax..

-I hope this doesnt end soon. i'm trying real hard, can't bear to see ya'll apart:)

END OF M.Y.E:)
i did horrible!
anyways,today was THE BEST DAY EVER!
although exam sucked and i got to know i failed physics REAL BAD:(
headed to bugis with rahziah(hottest) noraza(cutest) mano(prettiest) syazman(handsomest) and of course me(sexiest) LOLS!
i spent alot-coz i had money:)
and yeah,this outing was the BESTEST!!!
(and dude,thanks for reminding me what day today was... it wasnt needed)
anyways,heck that,ate pastamania... niceee:)
rahziah say i look sexy!! haha.. i kembang:) she looked awesome.. in fact,everyone did:)
so,bought a baggy blouse with noraza.. a pink tight fit blouse with rahziah... turquoise heels.headbands and an awesome off-shoulder blouse...
rahziah say i look nice in off-shoulder and skinnies.. haha!everything rahziah say:))
took tons of pictures at bugis and northpoint carpark...most of it on facebook:)
and yeah,i met EYE-TO-EYE with an awesomely cute guy at bugis!!! so fvcking cute.. and we passed by each other like three times!! dammit,should've asked for number.LOL!
oh well,im satisfied with today.. had lota of fun.. and i had an awesome time shopping!

TO THE DEAREST BESTIES: thanks for an awesome outing today. i dont know why,it was absolutely special:) and yeah,thanks alot for just being there with me today.. i love you to bits! :)

4 more days till i reactivate facebook:)
anyways.i miss temasek poly!
haha..i miss my eye candy:( [HE SO EFFING CUTE]

ok,enough of that. i just finished the vocabulary thingy..HECTIC MUCH!

I gotta head back to studies..
just wanted to blog for the fun of it:)
bye peeps.
will try to blog soon!
<3

5 more days to end of MYE!
rahziah came over today to do poa together.. AWESOME:) i kinda understand better:)
then we did the vocabulary thingy... GCE O LEVEL WORD YOU SHOULD KNOW!
yeah!its gonna be our thing:)
anyways,texted shiva and noraza today..
that stupid cute guy forgot about me!
haha!planning to slack for the rest of the day..
and yeah!!!that movie me and rahziah watched was awesome! except they had the sex part which was O.O!
ANYYYYWWAYYYSSS...
i wanna go out! i feel imprisoned at home:(
dad went for meeting,and im fvcking bored!
coz got no facebook!!
oh well,i got nothing else to blog:) bye!

Vini: I cut my hand with set square till it broke.lol
Noraza: Break? next time you use sword la. more power!
haha.. Sarcasm much!
i've been counting.. 4 people asked me to stop cutting hand.. and around 10+ are like:wow,u cut hand?
EPIC REACTIONS!!
anyways,irza,IMY!!and i'll try not to cut hand.. its become a habit ..but i'll try stop kaes:) for you,and everyone else who asked me to.
anyways..english and malay paper 2 today.. english was hard(this is the first time i'm saying so)
malay was average,its was easy(either coz i understood it,or i anyhow write crap shit:D)
Oh well,whats done is done.. after school,met rahziah at northpoint ..bought stationery..
otw home,i was listening to music and one random guy from chung cheng high waved at me.. WEIRDO ATTENTION SEEKER SIA!
reached home,a little tv and piano.. text text shiva.. and going to TP later.. i lazy sia!!!!
HAHA..ok,today is slacking day.. tmrw is "mug poa till i die" day..
AWESOME RIGHT!

and yeah,i'm tired of making decisions by myself.i'm tired of getting worked up about small issues. i just wanna let life lead me where its destined to lead me to..
like,i seriously had enough of ups and downs in life.. and yeah,cutting my hand is ony "temporary" relief of such crap..
TO HELL WITH LIFE.

COUNTDOWN:
-6 MORE DAYS-END OF M.Y.E!
-9 MORE DAYS TO SHAMIRA BDAE:)
-14 MORE DAYS TO SHANMUKA BDAE:)
-17 MORE DAYS TO GINO BDAE:)
-23 MORE DAYS TO GRANDAD BDAE:)

alright,i'm done here! enough blogging.
random thoought: i wanna delete my tumblr!

exams are going horrible..
haizz..worst mye ever.
gonna fail badly for sure:(
anyways,i'm so sorry to those people i showed attitude to over these past few days..
partly coz of what im going through now..just hope i'll be fine..
but yeah,i'm stressed up at stuff..
and i'm really sorry that i did something you told me not to:(
its already a habit..
oh well,i better start on revising for maths paper 2 and geog paper tmrw:(
and,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CUTE GUY!! :D
i fvcking miss facebook:((

She Started Writing Notes And Keeping Them Under Her Pillow. Then She Started Writing Them On Her Pillow Case, Hoping They Would Help Her Have Better Dreams. And If She Couldn't Sleep, She Could Just Read Them And Be Reminded Of Something So Beautiful That Her Heart Would Swell And Her Bones Would Sigh, And Just For A Second,  THE WHOLE WORLD WOULDN'T SEEM LIKE IT WAS GOING TO CRUSH HER.

Yesterday, I've finally realised that i was such an asshole all this while.
I just didn't want to face reality,coz i knew it would hurt me real bad.
But something made me change my mind yesterday,and yeah,its fvcking hurting me now.
I've told lies to countless people,only to make myself feel better. They support me all the while,but i do feel the hurt inside coz I know thats not how i really think.
I'm still insecure,unconfident and hopeless.I don't have the courage to tell people what I really feel. I'm afraid to lose people .
Listening to I Miss You by Go Radio. That may have made me realise how dumb i was.
- And Right Now Where You Are I Guess You're Over It.
- But I Can't See How You Without Me Could Possibly Make Any Sense.
- And Right Now All You Need Is Just Some Time To Mend.
- Oh Well Take All You Need But My Sanity Is Forever Riding On This.
-SPELL IT I M-I-S-S I MISS YOU.

gosh,i can't believe i just told almost everything.
but you know what, FML. i just gotta live with it.
K.BYE. i'm gonna learn an emo song(go radio-why i'm home) on piano.
(7 marks...)